listen so ever closely to

Self kepo

2011-07-18T20:23:00.000-07:00

I find that i tend to talk bout myself wadderfuuuuuu. How boring. Ok bai.

Fox rain no?

2011-07-18T20:19:00.000-07:00

Oh i definitely have to remember this day! Ain't that of a big deal. I never thought it'd happen but i knew it'd still, yet it happened! I am gooooood :D Or it's just my luck hmm.

So the thing is, dad finally let me drive by myself already.

Drive by myself.

MYSELF.

hehehehehehehhehehehh :D

I am a happy kid now :D Eh, i mean a happier kid! It's about time i'm able to be driving alone, and yes just when dad finally let me drive, and i have the passion to drive anywhere, anyhow, the car just had to exceed the service period. Whatever is it called. Now i have to wait till the car gets serviced. Oh great. For the time being, i shall stay home cook rice and do shit. Yeahhhh doing shit now alright.

Still trying to finish my work, bah so much to do so little time. Let's just say.. I asked for it. Yeah at my face, really. I believe i don't deserve it because i am a bright kid i should deserve sth better in life. Except just now when i had the mood to go for a jog and it friggin rain. Of all days, seriously.

Ohh well, i should study. Least try studying :D

Byebye not-so-abandon-but-lonely blog.

Long live

2011-07-17T21:29:00.000-07:00

Wadderfuuuuuu.

Seriously. How long has it been? Felt like twenty years i didn't lay a finger on my blog when i had only celebrated my 19th birthday two months ago.

So yeah, how's life? If there's anyone alive even reading this, you'd probably think,"Shit how did i came here?" or "W.T.F IS THIS." Or if you even reach this part that is -.- I mean, cmon, who gives a goatdamn shit bout anythin like this blog which has been abandoned for almost half a year. Half a year doesn't sound long, i think it's just me.

So this is it. After asghjkl months of complaining and nagging and wailing over form6, i'm still in form6. Trying to go through it. Just to get by and get accepted in uni. Life's tough eh? I think i tortured someone in my past life and so now they had their revenge. Great, so my after life would it be any better than this since i don't torture anyone much now?

Yes, thank you silence in the house. That's something for an answer. I'm pretty lazy to even do anythin now honestly speaking. Supposed to finish up a 700 word essay, which took me 5 days to write when all i need is only 2 hours to write it. In fact, only 45 minutes to write it if it's in the real exam. And i hardly even finish the fifth paragraph now, leaving 3 and a half more to write! *pats self*

I can't help it but to procrastinate. And that is the only thing i should avoid now since it's July already and i have practically 3months to cover up all my subjects and prepare for the final exam. If i'd be able to score and get in uni, my whole life would be changed. Sorta, less boredom in life. I'm trying not to say the opposite in case it brings me down. It sorta is, just thinking bout it.

I'm really lazy now. Should continue my essay. I wonder when will i be able to update my next post again. After STPM perhaps? :D

formspring.me

2011-07-17T07:26:00.001-07:00

Well helllloooooo. http://formspring.me/flosomebel

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

2011-03-05T01:05:00.000-08:00

Have you ever went thru that moment when you had this feeling of just being in love?

Okay being cheesy here :D But seriously. Ever not! And somehow i felt it when i came by a parawhore's tumblr and her tumblr song was enchanted by owl city! I had been trying to figured out the singer who sang that song ever since the first time i listened to it on another person's tumblr but i never bothered bout finding the song.. but whatevs. I just typed in enchanted but came out Taylor Swift's vid. Ain't a big fan of her cuz she annoys me in a way but her songs are nice, well some, especially the latest album Speak Now. Thought the guy who sang the same song made a cover of that song but nooooooo its a song in reply to her from Adam Young omg! And seriously, its so sweet.

Yeah i literally googled about it (being kepo and all wanna know bout the story bah) and i came by this from a random anon.

I love Tay and Enchanted is one of my top fav songs from Speak Now. So I studied it a bit. I found out it's about Adam Young, (Owl City). I LOVE him! I kow this because, well, Taylor said it herself in a way. On her website, she talks about what her songs are about. For Enchanted, she wrote this:

I wrote "Enchanted" about a guy who I was enchanted to meet, obviously. He was somebody that I had talked to a couple of times on email, and then I was in New Yorkand went to meet him.
I remember just the whole way home thinking, "I hope he's not in love with somebody." It was just wonderful, that feeling. Like, "Oh my gosh. Who's he with? Does he like me? Does he like somebody else? What does it mean?" I got home and he had emailed me and said something like, "Sorry I was so quiet. I was just wonderstruck meeting you." And so I incorporated the word wonderstruck, into the song as a, "Hey this one's sorta for you."

Well, being a huge fan of Adam Young, I would know that first, he loves using the word wonderstruck, second, I had heard that they were emailing, and third, they have met inNew York City before. Here's the pic of them actually, in New York City:
http://www.blogcdn.com/www.jsyk.com/medi…

Also, in the booklet to Speak Now, in the lyrics, she spells out the name ADAM. All the letters are lower cased, except those that spell out the name Adam. What other Adam does she know?

So yeah, I'm pretty sure it's been figured out that Enchanted is for sure about Adam Young of Owl City.

ITS SO TOUCHING I CAN CRY ANY MOMENT NOW but i couldn't, think my tear duct stuck or what. So yeah, Adam Young is so cute omaigad. I dunno why i had this gg feeling all the way thru when i was googling about it ITS SO WEIRD LOLOL. But gosh, Taylor you're lucky lah.

Oh and that's obviously out of the topic but its a nice ending to an abrupt post anyway :D

MYCHONNY FTW. No im not in love with John Luc he's so annoying but i like him being so lame its entertaining.

I can see Jude sleeping now thru skype ohoho. *stalkerlol*

Ps : Did i mention i'm a gossip girl fan now?! Explains the whole thing about what i said before lol but totally no connection i know.

Oh yeah why bother

2011-02-01T16:55:00.000-08:00

Dear blog,

Its about time. I must apologize for neglecting you.

So much for studying during the one week school holiday when i totally flunked most subjects. Oh and fyi, still trying to get over this depressing illness i have. The mucus just wouldn't leave me. Help?

I hadn't been spending much time with twitter nor tumblr neither. I'm always thinking bout you no worries. *hugs*

I guess it's just gonna be a whole new different thing again now. Time is getting a lil mean now and my final exam is like at the tip of my fingers. I'm afraid yet not giving a shite at the same time. What am i suppose to do?

Obviously i won't be doing anything about it -.-

A day from now it's gonna be Chinese New Year.

Yes CNY! New clothings, not new but more food, more money coming in yet going out at the same time but not much of my problem :P Thats what cny is all about eh? Money and food. I dunno. And an advantage for school holidays!

A week from now i'll have to start being serious about the whole point i'm in form6 for.

I should have been intense about it ever since i started form6 year. But guess i didn't really care much.. and i don't think i ever will be. I just can't. How the heck did i bury my minds in those books right then when i was in elementary and form3? Shite. I totally screw myself this time. The more older i get the more immature i'm becoming. Does it even makes sense? Yes it does. It's Isabel Florence Ngui i'm talking about. She's by far the only human being i know who just doesn't bother much about anything she's not keen of. Hmm maybe not :P

Exactly 2 weeks from now Jude will have to leave here again, i'm not sure if i can take it this time.

Oh God, i can! I think.

I would be a sad excuse for a tough inner girl! Or should i say woman.

He had his summer holidays ever since December last year, it sounded short but it sorta felt long. And it actually felt like he had never left to Miri in the first place. But come on, back to reality lady, he's going back there. To that desolated city. But it would be nice to backpack my way there one day :D I'll just have to strive through piles of books and researches and exams and then au revoir school, hello erm no school :D and Jude! as the saying goes, love has no distance. (Sentence i picked from AJ Rafael's she was mine since i'm listening to it ohoho might as well i list down the whole lyric here)

And exactly a month from today i'll be sitting for my MUET speaking exam oh great I. WILL. DAI. Being in the same group with Bill and Daniel its gonna be tough. And when i mean tough i MEAN it. Why did i wanna get involved in the 1st place *facepalm* It's not that they're lousy and all but they're too GOOD you know? What if i'm the one who's gonna flunk in it in the end -.-

So probably after minutes of awkward uhms and ahhs during the exam (I CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT MOMENT) it's gonna be a huge relief then. I LOVE RELIEFS. But yeah, thats a really stupid thing to say. Loving reliefs are like asking for a gay to smack you in the face with his/her prada. I dunno, it's not bad is it? I'm just saying i'm loving feeling glad. Like rainbows after thunderstorms. Or smiles after cries. Babies after.. okay let's not get there.

And one year later, i dunno what i'll be doing then. Probably just waiting for my results while working part time. Thats about it. No holiday trips, no summer vacation (it either rain or shine, if not maybe world climax since its the 2012 anyway), no nothing. Maybe something, i'll think about it then.

Its alot to think about. I could have thought about it just 30 days ago. But nooooo, i wanna decide on it today. Sometimes, better off just not hang on my words for it. Can't assure it would be something good.

For now it's war.

Ps : No assurance that i would bother completely anyway.

Oh my precious

2011-01-27T19:00:00.000-08:00

Celeb for the month! Probably throughout the whole 2 months :/ Somewhat thanks to YAB i'm back to fan girl-ing with Geunsuk again. But also cuz of Marry me Mary its double the crush now. Heehee.

ONE OF THE HOTTEST GUY I'VE EVER SEEN.

I mean seriously, what guy would still look this hot with an eyeliner? -okay exceptional for TOP, GD, yonghwa, 2pm- But really, WHO ELSE IN THIS WORLD. A pondan perhaps but nah, not as beautiful
:P

Excluding Jude as well! Because he's not a celeb and he'll be as beautiful anyhow -even though he's that fat and tam chiak and ego and so annoying with his giggle i mean gosh what guy giggles??- he's an awesome being :3

So off-colored

2011-01-26T20:05:00.000-08:00

What's with me getting sick so easily lately. Last Christmas i was sick. And now, days before cny i'm sick again. If it's cause of me not obeying one of heaven's rules i can understand but why do i have to get sick just when i really needed to be somewhere when for once, i really want to. And what's with me getting sick and menstruate at the same time -_- It's rather exasperating actually. So annoying that its beyond my limit sometimes but since i'm sick, i don't seem to bother much about having mini diapers lingering in my undies. Okay now that sounds disgusting like seriously. UGH.

Okay enough about period. Think it was cuz of The Runaways that i can't seemed to stop replaying the image of blood dripping on the ground when Cherie first had her period on the street. It was played on the beginning of the movie anyway. Gosh. Never though Dakota can really played the bad girl image when she have this angelic so innocent face.

So yeah, last christmas i was even more sick than now. Felt like i could just faint any minute but yeah i made it through. Even stayed out from morning till night, and then i got my period at night. Least this time, i'm recovering faster than ever, despite the giddiness. And why can't it just bloody rain? So annoying jeez.

Its wednesday already. Fridaaaaaaeeeee =3

Oh so hot

2011-01-19T17:57:00.000-08:00

I was scrolling through tumblr dashboard when i saw this.

Couldn't stop laughing when i read all those especially the one circled in red ITS SO STUPID LIKE LITERALLY HAHAHAHHAHA.

And gradually i think it's just cute in a way too when the fans getting all so hyped up or in another term ORGASM when they see their idols. Happens more on the kpop fans :3 i can understand XD

So basically they're all so hyped up over this image.

Heeteuk XD

and noticed the way heechul caressing leeteuk's chest?? OMAIKAT.

Hangover

2011-01-18T16:14:00.000-08:00

I knew this for awhile already but i really need to post it OMAIKAT GD SO HOTTTT *diesslowly*

They should make more videos gosh i feel like i abandoned my fanatic for bigbang for so awhile and suddenly i searched about it thanks to hitztv -.-

Damn short post cuz mum nagging me already to shower we going shopping for cny clothes later WOOOOOOOOOO.

GD WHAI U NO MINEEEE T.T

Its a whole new damn world

2011-01-17T17:19:00.000-08:00

I am not busy from school and studying or whatsoever that is holding me back from blogging. I am just lazy. Simple as that. Okay maybe am busy due to piles of bloody homeworks and essays and assignments. Why this year alot of presentations going on lah?! I hate having to just stand infront of so many ppl and thats when those butterflies start swarming around :/ Sometimes i just wish i can be just as spontaneous as Jude does. Hope he doesn't read this *praysonknees*

So it's 2011.

Yup it is. I felt like alot has changed but come to think of it, not much did. I'm still the same old noisy self proclaimed sarcasm and all that girl, (yeah but not literally all THAT). Lil sis is finally a freshman in high school yet she was the only who got accepted in the art school. Somewhat one of the best school in the city which i never heard of before (EVER) in my life. Why does it have to be oh so famous after bloody 7 years when i'm literally dying in form6. Though being the seniorest of all seniors can be fun XD bullying the young ones and all, but still it's tough when i just can't do things i like. Oh no i'm not gonna crap everythin about how school is living the hell outta me. I will accept it and move on.

Aaaaanyway, found out my uncle is getting married. FINALLY. He's been single ever since i was born, and he dated few times and now he's getting married i'm gonna be an aunt!! :D So yah, he's the only uncle whom i think resembles alot of my dad. And reminds me of me and my lil sis, about how close we are and can crap whatever we can just say. Seeing that there's at least one sibling whom is close to my dad is just great. Long story.

Next good news, i dunno. I think i screwed up my form6 life. Yes i'm gonna start whining and moaning about how much i screwed up my life. Not literally but yeah. It's just.. sometimes being the nice one (i'm not saying myself nice lah) is just difficult. And that when you have to be the bad one because you really had no choice, guilt just come splash on you. So basically i did something which made me feel so guilty today and i can't do anything much about it, except explaining a whole load to my friends. But they would understand. And i'm so lazy to wanna explain more about it since i've had moaned to dad earlier. So yada yada end of my complaint.

So.. i'm just gonna stop for now. I'm still reading Dear John for heaven's sake -.- Since like forever. But i have to say, it's a really good book. At first i was dying to finish it cuz the the first few chapters were damn draggy but now that i'm almost to the end of the story, i don't want it to end T.T sadly, its just one of those stories where one just can't be with someone whom he love. It's just devastating. Reading and getting goosebumps at the same time -.-

Hmm for now, i still can't get enough of that ego brat. Why he stay so farrrrrrrrr.

You are the one

2011-01-01T18:55:00.000-08:00

I just realized something! Today's 1/01/11!! I bet i'm the last person on earth who ever noticed that. When i saw Hayley Williams posted on twitter with the timing 1:11 also, i was sure i didn't give a damn. I sorta think ppl who did that very wu liao but yeah, i didn't have a clue myself! Seriously, i should get out of the house and breathe FRESH AIR. Ehhh no, 2011 air. I didn't step foot outside the house (maybe my backyard lah) since.. last year. Exactly! Sounded like i'm such a loner or sth. Which isn't true. And i'm supposed to be in church by now but i'm too lazy so yeah. Forgive me Lord for i have sinned. ALOT.

I shall pray tonight for forgiveness. Amen.

Sooooo, Christmas' over. Well not literally in the angmoh places but here? After 25th it's officially over. Christmas here is like so sad i still feel weird why i love christmas more than chinese new year. Now i'm looking forward to CNY. I want new clothes. New stuff. I obviously can't get my supras since dad once told me i can't get shoes any more than 200 wtfbbq obviously i can't get converse also! Get what lah? Adidas. Reebok. Nike. I will dai more. Might as well go Bata buy those black sneakers. Can wear em to school anyway since i'm in bloody upper six. I AM SENIOR NAO MUAHAHAHA. I've always thought being a form5 would be a senior also but nah, form6 is the seniorest of seniors. Not like i can rule the school, but i can smack whatever kid that make me annoyed. I don't friggin care if i have a role in school. I'm a senior HEEHEE.

I even have a resolution for this year. I didn't have one last year because i didn't care about anythin to do with the future then. Well now i do, since it's the only year i know where my future lies. (Cuz i screwed my form5 year i don't wanna screw this time) It's thrice the harder of form5 and i knew i'm gonna screw it if i don't take it seriously. The only barrier is, econ and business. Worse two subjects in my life. I'd rather take IT. Since its in english. Bah enough said. School's next week and i'mma have to live with it. So new resolution this year?

Shoot for the moon.

I took that verse from PS I Love You. It sorta inspired me. Except that i don't have a hot dead husband who wrote me letters before he died and gave me advises. I don't mind. I have a hot alive boyfriend :D But he didn't tell me to shoot for the moon but yadayada nao i just wanna continue on my penguin diner. It's so fun!!

And i've been listening to this song ever since i found it. It's so sad T.T

Nao, goodbai.

Its christmas yo

2010-12-23T22:41:00.000-08:00

Wow.

Its about time i update my blog. But i just don't have the heart to wanna do it. Just ain't so into it these days. Or should i say months. So yeah, Christmas is like the day after tomorrow already wtf and yes, i got my dress aka an early present from Jude x)

Alot of happening these days but i just can't seem to remember some of em. But most of em which is still glued in my head? Is somewhat memorable enough *emo by the beach* And alot new stuff i tried on too. I didn't even realize i did until i recall it.

I wore a bikini! :O

I still can't swim :/ hmm bummer.

I got a dress? XD

My hair color is coming back!

Jude's back :P gosh that boy. So lovely.

And what else, i dunno. I just can't seem to remember. And i actually can't believe 2011 is around the corner. I wouldn't even know it if i dunno christmas is just right there. A day from now. See how time flies. Like how ppl use money like water.

Crap.

And yeah. I thought of updating because i just read Josh Farro's blog here. Sigh.

So now, i'm going to, i dunno, do something. Plants vs zombies maybe. FTW! :DDDD

But before i run off, Merry Christmas in advance :) whoever came by here lol.

Till then.

That Cruikshanks got me

2010-11-27T03:26:00.000-08:00

If it's not for iCarly, i would have not been uh well, not knowing about iCarly and especially Fred!

So Fred is actually this guy i met when i was having my camp that day and he told me i looked great with my nightgown on :D

Nah just kidding. I don't even know this guy. Fred is a 6 year old who talks like the lightning speed and i so love his screaming! Real name's Lucas Cruikshanks. Or that's just what i think his surname is. Reminds me of Crookshanks from Harry Potter though :/

These are the two i so far like the most :D

So basically that's not his real voice. But it's so annoyingly funny! Bonus for the screaming :D And his youtube has over 1 million views, even exceeding 25 millions for some other videos but ppl just tend to dislike him alot hmm.

Anyway sleeps.

It's a menace out there

2010-11-27T03:07:00.000-08:00

It's about time i update about my miseriness. And yes, a misery just happened! Actually hardly, well part of it! But i kinda got over it maybe for a little while, probably tomorrow i'll moan over it again.

So yeah yesterday, i finally went out. Not just step out of the house door out but stepping onto the outer world out. Yes, it's about time it happen ever since school holiday started and i haven't been dragging my ass out of the house. All i did at home was sleep, eat lunch, watch tv, watch online dramas, text, eat dinner, shower and trying to sleep around 3am or later than that possibly just so to wake up in the afternoon so i won't die of boredom after i wake up. So many 'so's. And i wonder what how i went through everyday just by doing the same thing. Gosh i'm so amazing at times it entertains me.

I went out with Hannah to Spring. Yes that same huge but not so huge mall again. Though i haven't been there for a month plus but i am not missing it at all. Probably the shoe shop, clothing, food, brassiere, and loads but not at all the bloody mall and ppl. Not that the ppl ever do anything to me lah but so and so.

Okay point is, i never mean to wanna complain it here but since Denzie sorta wanna know the story of the reason why i was saying myself the stupidestest in facebook (if he doesn't care i'll smack that nut shell outta him) i shall update it right here. Yes right here right now. I don't care if it's freakin 2.14am now i just wanna get over with this.

And it helps my mood better to just letting it all out :) Just hope that particular human being won't be able to read this HORROR! -particular human will be mention right after the story-

So Hannah and i was doing our own thing, hanging around the place and looking for any cafes that offers free wifi and affordable food and drinks (let's just say we wanna get some 2-3 bucks drink and use up all the wifi there) but we couldn't cause Starbucks drinks aren't oh-so-that-nice, just ain't my type. Coffee bean.. well they don't offer much choice compared to Starbucks, they have gazillions, and when i mean gazillions, i mean the list goes on and on, until list number 100. I don't get what i'm saying. So yeah even Big Apple, Secret Recipe, Kfc, Food Bazaar and all those, obviously they don't have wifi right? (And if they do, that's just cause hannah and i didn't bother much to go check for wifi) Okay thing is, we just wanted to find a place to settle down to google about places to eat in kuching which is affordable yet nice at the same time to go on MJ's birthday the coming wednesday.

Anyway, we wanted to go to the hypermarket until this man who promotes remote control cars approaching us. I thought he wanted to promote us those cars but do ppl who friggin promote friggin remote controls car ask this? "Hi are you from Kuching?" Mothertrucker well obviously i'm from kuching la i got this kl face meh. Well there were few who thought i was from KL but sadly, i'm not kay? (I wish i do look like i'm from korea or some korean american CAN LAH) Okay i DON'T look like some one from KL lah duh and guess what was my answer. "No, i'm from KL." I said that because i didn't want him to bother me telling me about remote controls cars when i wanna just go get a fudgin pringles and leave that place in peace. I'll just get to the conversation.

That weird guy : Hi are you from Kuching?

Me, the innocent one : No.

TWG : So where you're from?

Me, TIO : Er KL.

TWG : Really? I'm from KL too! (FUCK MAN SO MUCH FOR LYING TO GET HIM AWAY)

Me : *slowly dies* ohh *smiles* ohh...

TWG : So what are you doing here?

Me : Uh, holiday?

TWG : For how long?

Hannah, sorta the saviour : One week.

Me : Yeah, one week plus.

TWG : So where are you staying in KL?

Me : (I HAVE NO RUTHLESS IDEA ANYTHING BOUT KL SO CAN U IMAGINE HOW MUCH BRAINSTORMING MY BRAIN HAD TO DO TO BLOODY THINK WHERE I AM "STAYING" IN KL??) errr.. er..

Hannah : SS14!

TWG : What ah?

Hannah : *hisses at me* SS14........

Me : Oh uh SS14.

TWG : Ohh at Petaling Jaya ha?

Me : Yea yeaa thereeeee heh.

*walks away quickly*

He is a one guy who questions alot. AND SO ANNOYING YEEEHH.

We even had to go down the escalator from the 1st floor to the lobby to use the other side of the lobby's escalator to get to the OTHER side of 1st floor just so to get away and not pass that freak. So much work done. Jeez.

Next thing we knew was, Hannah's cousin called and we have to use the front entrance to get to her car. Problem is, to get to the freaking entrance, we have to eventually walk pass that human. We got no choice, unless we're freakish enough to speed up towards the entrance or magically turn invisible to get there but no choice but to pass that place. Yeah, exactly where he works at.

We scurried quickly as possible while looking down, and HELL YEAH was i wishing non stop that he doesn't sees us but Gods knows why that boy has superman's eyes and detected me straight and guess what he called.

MEI NU.

*horror music playing background*

Eff okay. I am not one of those typical lalas who loves getting compliments being called MEI NU. Seriously, i don't. I don't fucking care if it means pretty or beautiful or sexy or whatever gorgeous meanings lah it's just so annoying okay.

So the moment he said that i swear i was wishing and hoping and bidding and crossing my fingers mentally SO HARD that he wasn't calling me and yeah, fucking suprisingly, he walked infront of me and asked what's my name.

Stupid mistake anybody should not be doing number one.

If any random remote control cars promoter (especially men, under the age of 25 lah i think) ask you what's your name, never, i repeat, NEVER tell them your real name. Even if you had nothing in mind except your name, for example Isabel, still NEVER give it out. Just change it a lil bit, maybe to Isabeel or Isobel or Ysabel. It does makes a difference! But yeah, i gave out my name. My mind just went blank.

Stupid mistake anybody should not be doing number two.

If a men (under the age of 25 lah i suppose) asks for your cell phone number, never, i swear you'll never regret (unless you're single and the guy is fuckin hot which IS NOT IN THE CURRENT CASE NAO), NEVER give your number either. And even if you had nothing else in mind and your mind was completely blank except your number, just change your numbers or give him your dad's number, or your boyfriend's number (unless you're a lesbian, you give your gf's number lah) or whoever, just don't give yours! Cause i did, my mind just completely went off from a 500gb to being-attacked-by-virus chip!

So yeah, i was stupid enough to even gave him my real name and number. I'll just cross fingers and pray that he somehow lost the paper where my number and name was written on somewhere :) Let's pray for world peace. God bless y'all.

Oh and if he don't, let's just hope he somehow forgets how to even use a phone. Amen.

And one more thing, stupid mistake anybody especially someone who tries to escape from a remote control car promoter number three, DON'T tell a lie. It actually leads to something even more horrifying for what beholds in front of your smexy eyes. See what happened to me?

Learn from mistakes man. Learn.

Ps : I HOPE NO ONE GETS THE LAST TWO MNG PINKISH PEACH TANK TOP CAUSE I WANT IT SO BADLY I'M SO GONNA GET IT ONCE I STEP INTO SPRING AGAIN I DON'T FUDGIN CARE IF THAT FREAK IS THERE AGAIN.

Jude called! :DDDD I feel so much better.

4 days! :P

Feel like i'm living a

2010-11-12T18:46:00.000-08:00

Uncompleted sketch. I was too hungry.

Nichkhun you hilarious chic

2010-11-08T23:32:00.000-08:00

Hahahahahahahaha omg i can't believe i just saw what i just saw!

The second chorus after the bridge where Junsu was singing, notice what was Nichkhun doing?

OMG EVEN IN THE MV WHEN IT'S NOT PLAYING NICHKHUN'S CAUGHT PULLING DOWN HIS BACK SHIRT ALREADY XD

Okay it's like i syok sendiri only ehehe.

Confession time

2010-11-08T22:46:00.000-08:00

Why can't ppl be more, i dunno, SMART ENOUGH?

I know i'm less smart and all, but at least i do know i am smart in other sort of ways like, er for example, cook instant noodle! And not everyone can do that. Really. A friend of mine who is -no offense- a rich spoiled brat doesn't knows how. Actually i don't even remember which spoiled brat i know who doesn't knows how to friggin cook instant noodle. Life.

Back to the story. Remember how every country has different ways and style of living? Okay maybe only i do realize that :/ I didn't know until now that actually schools in one country are more or less the same. School A is a troublemaker school but somewhat one of the best schools in the city. School B is known (for what i heard lah) is the less smart school. So yeah, immediately students who finishes grade 11 in school B goes to school A for grade 12.

So my point is..

WHY DO SOME PPL FROM BLOODY SCHOOL B HAVE TO TAKE EVERYTHING SO SERIOUS WAN?

Yes school B does exist in real life, MY life in genuine, so does school A. And if ppl who has good understanding skills -i doubt if ppl from school B don't understand this, just hope they don't drop by here- they might loathe me by now. Yeah but seriously? When it comes to BL, we don't take things so seriously. No, i'm not saying BL humans take things for granted. I'm saying, being a prefect is like, i dunno, just another normal student but at the same time you have extra work to do. So what harm can be done to only do those small things. And even if those kids break school rules, who cares bah. But some ppl are just beyond the stupid boundary quitting prefect just because they detest gray pants.

If only my parents let me do whatever i want, i'd be out of school by now. Probably be doing something i like better. Rather than wasting time in high school and not whining about these pathetic things. Still in the state of moaning over band 3 in muet :(

Now i will continue with whatever i'm doing before. Wasting another few hours just lying on the couch. Yeah i skipped school, that's because i hadn't have any transport home. So as tomorrow. Probably gonna skip school again which i don't really give a shyt about.

I am a bad kid.

Vrai ou faux

2010-11-03T18:17:00.000-07:00

I am so cool i can speak french nyahaha but thats cuz my sister's taking french she's been practicing it for the last 30 minutes for the coming up finals. Wish her luck :D

Felt like there were alot of happening lately but come to think of it, not really. I mean Mich just came back from matrix, Hannah's birthday was days ago, sister's birthday is today and i got a band friggin 3 for my Muet.

Even though Mich would only be back for a week, its good enough. There's always something coming up when she's back, and yeah, more money to spend on. Mg my money okay -_- I sounded like a stingy hag. But its worth the spending! Two nights of sleepover at her place; went out on saturday morning for badminton with Vic, and damn was i getting rusty in it. Ran through the whole afternoon planning and buying ingredients for Hannah's birthday present. We thought of doing something different so we came up with chocolate peanut butter cupcakes. It was tough :/

I've always thought buying ingredients would be fun. But turned out hard if we don't understand certain words like sifted and whats the difference between evaporated milk and condensed milk?! And getting confused between baking soda and baking cocoa is devastating. But surprisingly, we bought the right ingredients :D Our cupcake turned out awesome. Hmm more to like tasted awesome only.

Mich and i were afraid the cupcake would overpuffed or something so we poured only half of the combined ingredients into the liners. Turned out hesitations shouldn't be made sometimes. This is, FAILURE.

But it's okay. Mistakes should be learned so here we are, striving with every piece of peanut minds and perspiration to bake another tray of those babies.

Aaaaaaaaaand it turned out okay. ITS BETTER!! Way way better than the previous flattened cupcakes. We were proud then :D Next, it was the icing frosting, which was one of the hardest :/

Two young kids not knowing what the heck sifted means even when we referred to the ingredients clearly which said,' 2 cups powdered sugar, sifted', still failed in making icing frosting. Ain't it sad. No wonder i got a friggin band 3 for my Muet. Fucking sad okay. But lets get to that later. So we just added in all the stuff and considered our powdered sugar is 'sifted', we just blend everything in. And with lil few drops of blue colourised flavour, voila :)

I present you peanut butter so called icing frosting! It looked sad. Didn't give it much love. Well blame Mich, she sempat fb-ed and drama-ed.

It took us a lil while to decorated those beautiful babies. Mich was falling asleep while decorating em, while i, was sorta brainstorming what design to do on.

Its soooooooooooooooooooo.. so.. well. Blue. But that was the point since Hannah's a die hard fan of blue :) And she likes peanut butter. Wait does she? I shall hope she somehow didn't read the peanut butter part. Amen. So yeah, the baking and making and stirring and fb-ing and decorating took us till 1sth am. WE SO AWESOME WOMEN. So much for staying up till 3am when we were already done with those earlier.

Went to BSC church the next morning! Which was exactly on sunday morning. As usual, my goosebumps took on me from the very beginning of the mass when the choir started singing their way until the mass ended right when the choir stopped singing. GOSH I THINK MY HANDLEGSNECKNOSEEYES HAIR LOVES THE CHOIR THERE. It was beautifully melodious to the ears *collapses*

And since it was sunday, it was already Hannah's birthday bahhh. WOOOO HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY HANNAH MANANA :DDD saranghae yuh dongsaeng lalalala idernowhatotherkoreancrap :)

Woo at least she grew bit taller :D

I haven't been to Spring ever since Jude left to Miri and i'm not regretting anything for not going there for the whole month plus. SPRING IS SO SAD I WANNA GO KL LIAO. Why oh why kuching so sad. So the coming up photos shows how sad we were.

They're even faking smiles for the camera! T.T

And yes, we were in sushi king :DDD

A bookstore without benches are like pigeons without eyes. See those sad kids! *watery eyes* Okay lamest metaphors ever. Need more of tutor from Jude The Metaphorerrrerrrerr :D

Well i skipped school on Monday which means i have more sleep and no need of waking up early. I was awoken with a smile on my face that very morning. *sniggers* Spent the whole day watching Koizora and I Give My First Love To You! The two movies i never get to watch finish due to some odd circumstances. Needless to say, Koizora was SO SAAAAAAAAAADDD. I didn't shed a tear but my heart died the moment when the main character died. It revived when Mich loaded Mischievous Kiss where HyunJoong acted in wwwwwwoooooooooooo my babay.

There's something about japanese movies where the main guy has to be the one who dies due to some fatal disease and the girl cries so horribly but having to stay strong and happy to move on whereas main girls in korean dramas have to die instead and thats the end of it. Habis cerita. Fin. Not showing about the boy being sad and all or whatsoever. But if the guy ended with another girl i'll smack the director.

So okay back to my less dramatic stories. My sister's birthday's today and i did not buy her anything. I am so dead broke i can't even afford myself sushi. Mum made me stayed awake on her birthday eve to surprise my sister with the birthday cake but ended up she was asleep soundlessly on the couch with the tv watching her. Hmph so much for a birthday surprise :/ But as soon as i was back from school today, the cake was right in front of my sister already. Mum was unwrapping the cake, probably telling my sister how much it cost or whatsover. We sang---- no scratch that last. I sang. I was the only one who sang the birthday song -_- the only who clapped hands. The only one, who well, the only one.

I forgot what was the cake's name but it was omgod knows whats inside, nice lah! I think it was mango tango cheese cake.

Even the cake was much more stunning than my sister nyahahaha XD Ignore the other sister. Speaking of the other sister, i went to her dance studio today! Yeah you got that right, DANCE studio. Soawesomeicanfaint. Her instructors are so cool they danced to Wedding Dress, Where You At and another korean song i dunno :/ gosh and i call myself a kpop fan. Eat own shite. My lil sis's performance's next week and they're dancing to Like A G6 and Hurricane Venus. They looked more like mopping around the floor -_- but they're so cuuuuuteeeee! So naive XD I'll probably get smack by them if they read this. I'll just cross my fingers.

I still smell like men now! EW. My sister drove mum and i to Guardian and my sister was looking through men's deodorant. Spraying each of every one on me so literally, i have 3 different scent of men's deodorant on me. YUCK OKAY. Reminded me of old sweaty fat men and my dad.

I shall end my post with a grievance of how much i wanna cry cuz my Muet got a friggin band 3. But i'm already lazy to wanna complain. Diu.

Sour Cherry Drops.

Could have gotten the butterscotch :/

Goodbais.

28 days! :P

In all my spite

2010-10-26T22:00:00.000-07:00

I am currently in the state of wanting to smack the earth. On any random reasons. I cannot for the life on me understand why everything has to be so opposite at the wrong time.

I dislike procrastination. Yet i procrastinate half of the time in my life, not studying but doing stuff for my own pleasure. Hmm that sounded wrong in a way. But point is, i felt like studying a moment ago. Like actually opening my econ book and start studying through. Why the heck it happens when exam is totally over for real. I collapse gracefully.

And i'm reading PS I Love You! Could have been done with the story last year before the movie even premiered. But i was just too lazy; probably begone with something else that attracted me (like the internet). So i never finished the story anyway, not even reaching two chapters. I didn't get why i wasn't brought together with the whole idea of reading book first then movie afterwards. I did that for Harry Potter and Twilight, sadly not for this one.

The movie was awesome :D *thumbs up*

Watched it twice! *toes up*

But book wasn't like the movie :/

Or should i say, movie wasn't like the book at all. As far as i'm concern, it was a whole lot different story. Yes Gerry died, and yes Holly is dying knowing that Gerry is gone forever, but since when Frank died in the movie? Ciara does exist but explain where the hell did Declan, Richard, Jack gone to? People would murder the movie for being so spoiler for everything if they had read the book. But i'm like the opposite. Tormenting the book instead -.-

I feel so outdated cause i got angry months after everyone did. HA. Well, being to up to date is so ohi'msosmartiknoweverything sometime

HELL. Did i mention about The Fugitive Plan B? Where Rain acted in it? Ignore Rain. Daniel fuckyeah Henney is starring in it. I collapse. The show is going on now i shall fall my eyes upon him.

33days!

Wish upon you

2010-10-24T02:38:00.000-07:00

I love my bed. It's like i'll fall asleep so easily every time i lay down on it. Like anytime too. Even if i took 3-4 hours of nap in the afternoon, i'll end up sleeping again on it after an hour or two. I think it has a crush on me ._.

But then i found sth that can make me stay awake from falling asleep once crashing on the bed.

JUDE.

Yes i even added a full stop after his name.

Yup that Mister Ego whom i dislike at first sight but ended up being someone i adore so much :) Damn. And ppl says love is blind? Nah thats bullshit. Hmm not really.

So yeah, point is, he is the cure to my not-falling-asleep-when-i'm-on-the-bed problem. Though it sounds wrong in a way (well technically)............ but yeah. Except the night before when i fell asleep while waiting for dad to leave the laptop and Jude rang me, complaining bout how his laptop died in tragic and simply apologizing repeatedly right after he finished moaning over his lappy's death when he found out i was actually asleep already. Heh.

But his laptop is awake now, still functioning alright just that the screen got scratch. Ouch :/

Then he called me 3 hours ago again!! This time, i'm wide awake and ON the bed which is amazing.. but that happens.

Point is, its been 3 months and well, its cute so i really like it here :D

Though its at the bottom right after my feedjit but who cares its just so CUTE :DDDD

I seriously never really like him when i first saw him. Yes i mean Jude :D To be more specific, i first saw him in kindergarten but i can barely remember even talking to him. Years later when i have better brain, i started going to addmath tuition in form4 and thats when i saw him again. Obviously he doesn't recall me due to his huge ego and probably too much of majoring in studies. Worse come to worse, my friends and i argued with his gang. I don't remember what about; and was having difficulty remembering his name and kept thinking his name was Jake.

Surprisingly, we went to the same national service camp a year later and i find him less ego. But still, i dislike him for being, well, ego. Days after the camp, we managed to still contact each other through texting. I don't even remember why we did but it happened and well, we happen. And he wasn't that ego after all :) Its just the guy pride kinda thing XD

So Happy 3 months Anniversary Jude :)

Don't worry, ever since i met you, i'll never let you fall away from me.

Gosh cheesy :P

Now i shall drown my head into the lovely pillows.

36 days!

To find perfection in my pride

2010-10-21T22:51:00.000-07:00

Its thursday! I am now officially wild free from exam. But i screwed two subjects already -_- I got an F for Business last test. Now I got another F for another subject. Behold, microecon! So yeah, i got two failed subjects now. I have to admit, those two subjects is easy to pass. And i couldn't pass simply because 1) I have no interest in them. 2) I have to read one whole book of business which is the size of the yellow book in two weeks and i managed to only read half a chapter out of 4 chapters. 3) I just don't give a shyt.

If mum knows that i'm dead. Like for real. Yet now she's been asking around for business tuition. I doubt if there is. Plus, if i have no intention to ever wanna concentrate in business, whats the use of a tutor if i just don't wanna study it? Bah. I wonder how i managed to pass my history in form5 when i totally flunked in it for the last two years.

If business and econ is in english i'd most probably have more motivation to study them. Now its in Bm i can hardly concentrate. Weird thing is, i can score for bm way better than those two. I can even study well for it. And yes, my bm amazingly passed. I got more than half of the questions right which makes my mood better. Just hope i won't fail another subject. I'm beginning to feel horrified with the word fail :/ especially when its my ever final year in high school.

Can high school get any worse? Being a prefect can be such a fuss but seems like normal students can really be assholes. If i were not to be a prefect, i'd smack those baboon kids with the back of my hand. But that wouldn't happen anymore cuz i wouldn't know if they're so much pain in the butt. I shall upgrade my patience to another two levels for the next 8-9 months in school so to avoid getting in a cat fight with ppl. I am so glad i'll be out of the small kid world once i finish form6. I could have be glad earlier -_- I did, it went along awhile ._.

If i were to pass my form6, what if the uni offer business course? I'll bury myself with the mole rats. I SHALL NOT THINK ABOUT IT JUST YET.

And mum just showed me an album full of her ex boyfriends' pictures -.- I wonder why she still keep em and dad doesn't even know. Out of 4 ex's, 3 of em were cute. The least good looking one is just too skinny but mum has the most of his pictures. Weird much.

Ohh look! I found a different version of Charlie the unicorn. Its Charlie teh unicron! More to like the crude version of it :/

Episode 1 is annoyingly funny!! Shut the heeeeeeeeell up XD

The 2nd episode ain't as funny as the first though but yeah :/

I LOVE PARAMORE!! *swoons*

I shall end this right here i'm feeling needles in my neck already ._.

39 days! :P

Annoying Kid

2010-10-20T22:12:00.000-07:00

I have never met any kid as annoying as this one -_-

But damn. Family Guy is funny XD

I Say

2010-10-20T19:16:00.000-07:00

My exam has ended. Wooooooooooo. Not officially but it has. finally. ended. Kehabisan. Mei you. tiada lagi. Bo liao.

There's Muet tomorrow but hey, muet you can close one eye and voila, you're done. But nah i'd rather open all four eyes of mine because my previous test for Muet was 76%. Its a fucking 76 man. I speak english everyday yet i only get a B is like an indian not being able to score for indian language test. PS not being racist here. And for me getting an 80 in Muet would be sorta tough since my english is so rojak sigh so yeah 76 is okay :D

But nahhhh, after tomorrow i can throw my books into the river! Then i'll get smack by my mum so i'd better just place em in the bookshelf.

After exam, i'll just need to get a part time job. Why? I just need to. And it's definitely gonna be my first part time job ever! That is if i ever get a job. How possible is it to get hired to only work for 2 months? Actually i'd wanna work only for a month since on December Jude will be back ohoho. Its gonna be tougghhhhhhh.

This is it. Sayonara.

Bliss

2010-10-18T16:05:00.000-07:00

I renewed my blog theme again!!

I feel so free.

Was supposed to nap since i have studying to do tonight but i can't help not doing sth i had to do when i thought about it. Yes, the editing pictures and all that :D

The header image is so huuuuugggggee!!

Ihopejudewontkillmeamen.

And this is so amazing! THEY are amazing anyway :)

Don't bah :(

2010-10-17T00:23:00.000-07:00

It is so annoying cuz so many ppl are leaving me!! (they just wanna leave kuching to be exact and main reason is to further their studies) So in other words, i syok sendiri.

I can actually type out one friggin long list of names who are leaving and already left! But i'm too lazy so i shan't. But still :'(

I don't get why i have to be only one who have to stuck back here. It's so sad having to know i can't travel around and have to go through one hell lot of misery back in school FYI PLACE OF TORTURE. But yeah, i have to be patient till i finish form6 and well, hopefully i can continue my studies. Somewhere on earth lah. To play safe, just stay in kuching cuz i don't wanna leave kuching yet T.T

And i just broke my toe nail :/

It is sad too.

A mess it grows

2010-10-16T23:42:00.000-07:00

If i were the first daughter in the family, i'd be more a bookworm.

If i were part korean, my eyes would be bigger than my current super chinese eyes.

If i were fat, i'd be cute.

If i were less fair, i'd be as famous as that bitch who lives across the pacific ocean.

If i were smarter, i'd probably end up getting a scholarship and further design in Paris.

If i were taller, i might end up being the same anyway -_-

If i were more sociable, my facebook would overflow with more than 4k friends.

If i were to have smaller feet, i wouldn't have to have sore feet after wearing a size 6 heels for having size 7 feet.

If i were mature, my mum would be my best friend.

If i were a boy, i would look handsome. Maybe even be a superstar.

If i were a millionaire, i'd build a statue of my face.

If i were never born, i'd still debate with God to let me be born.

If i were a bird, i'd be a blind man's eyes.

If i were to be a cartoon, i'd wanna look like Skipper from Madagascar.

If i were to have 9 lives, i'd use every life repeating the same life till i make whats right before it dues.

If i were a married man, i'd cherish my wife and smile at every bit of anger she splatters at me.

If i were given a chance, i'd make it happen.

But what if..

What if i really am the first daughter? My parents wouldn't have to worry so much over their second daughter's future and health.

What if i really am partly korean? I'd not be in Kuching and be able to meet such awesome ppl. Yes, you :)

What if i really am fat? Parents would love me more and give me whatever i want. More food :D

What if i really am less fair? I would have gorgeous tanned skin and not turning back fair again after days from sunburn.

What if i really am smarter? I'd not stuck in form6, probably studying full scholarship for design some where not in Kuching.

What if i really am taller? I would more or less be the same -.-

What if i really am more sociable? I'd have more than an account in facebook and fortunately, i don't and am not.

What if i really have smaller feet? I'd not have possibly be able to stand on my toes like a ballerina and be able to be stable :/

What if i really am mature? I wouldn't be so cute to mum :B

What if i really am a boy? Jude will have to be a girl so i can win his heart. I mean her.

What if i really am a millionaire? I will open a bank where the money will flow to the needy while another bank for myself :3

What if i really is never born? God will still find a way ._.

What if i really am a bird? I fly to Korea and be a korean bird.

What if i really am a cartoon? I'd be loved XD

What if i really have 9 lives? I am a psychic for sure.

What if i really am a married man? I am a girl. And will be a lady in few years time.

What if i really am given a chance?

I'd really need one now.

I wanna just be someone who can be able to leave too, not vice versa. Its hard to possibly seeing your important ones leaving you behind.

Don't Pretend

2010-10-15T00:00:00.000-07:00

I'm so in another mood to update again. Probably cause i can hardly online again since i still have exam next week till wednesday. Its good enough i'm not so tempted with the laptop.

PARAMORE SO AWESOME IN THIS VIDEO i think they should make a cover for airplanes without BOB. Who knows its nice like the original too :D

Its even my ringtone! :D Hayley Williams' hair so cool i want.

And why does Park Bom has to be so cuuuuute omg i wanna wanna wanna squeeze her face!

I never see anyone so cute before in my life. Besides Taemin XD He is hot plus cute and everything so exception too lah hehe.

Neon Tree is cool, why? Their song is awesome including the girl drummer in the band SO COOOOOLLLL LAH.

Credits to Jude for this song. Thanks animal :D

This next. Is so NICE!! Probably many ppl might have known about this song already but i just did.

Its so sad my nose is even crying now :'(

Bloody sinus pls go away.

P/s : 45 days and still counting :)

I walk into destiny

2010-10-14T22:19:00.000-07:00

I'm alive!! And luckily i still am. Exam has been taking over the last few days ever since monday and still is. I managed to get my butt on the line tonight, thanks to muet exam tomorrow. Fyi, report writing tomorrow hopefully i know how and what to write. Imagine getting dilemma halfway through the paper I CRY which actually happened to me this morning during econ paper. Eff man!! I studied so much for it until my headache attacked me minutes before the exam started. Nervous much? I CRYER.

Still, i'm so so ssssoooooooooooo glad business is over. It took me bloody few weeks to read through few pages and trying so hard to understand what fucking marketing means yet most of the questions came out were about managing and organization. BREATHEBREATHE. But good enough, at least i still have my common sense to work on the ones i didn't studied for. Amazingly the questions wasn't something you really need to memorize so much for. I think my common sense has gone out of level now hmm.

My right hand now is still dying due to monday and tuesday's continuous writing for 3 hours straight for two days. I'd better score for those two if not i'll. I'll probably just mourn for few minutes and then head for pizza after that :D

Hor yeah! I've been to an amazing mind blowing place the last weekend :) It was so awesome until i felt like it was my home when i stayed there only for a night. Hannah's aunt's home. The place was sorta hard to find since the area there had so many alleyways. When dad and i finally found the house, i was so eager to leave the car cuz mum was nagging. And i wish i didn't have to go for injection that saturday morning if not i'd have stayed at the house for 2 nights! The house looks typical from outside, like any ordinary houses (not that i go there just to check2 on ppl's house lah) but the inside is. . just. One word baby, one word. CHIO. Even a 5 star hotel can beat the house! But that's because a 5 star hotel need to be paid and this house is free of charge :D anyway, when Hannah showed me the bathrooms my eyes nearly paralyzed.

The biggest bathroom and one of the nicest one in the house.

The other half of the bathroom!! Can see the pro photographer in action.

And the bathroom is built in wan!! Hannah's aunty (actually not her related aunty, her parent's close friend or sth) renovated the whole interior and the bathroom turned out awesome T.T Now i definitely want my future house to be like that. Not only her bathroom is this remarkable, her kitchen is too! Except that i didn't vain-kan the kitchen.

Ash was so scared of me he kept running away every time he sees me ._. Usually i'd be the one who runs away when i see dogs lol. I made so much effort trying to get a snapshot of him but he just kept dashing away yeeh i'm that scary meh.

See he even hated my pro photo taking. But nice background :D

It was hard to study at home, yet trying to study at somewhere else is like trying to squeeze a guinea pig thats so fat, into a cup. But at least i did studied :D until two pages were torn from my business book. I studied violently, yes i do. Then Hannah and i cooked dinner! I've never eaten dinner where each portion contained cheese :D

I took charge of the omelette! Tomato cubes and melted cheese.

While Hannah fried the fries. It came out chao da :P

And i warmed up the leftover carbonara and added more cheese XD

Then voila!

Omelette plus tomato cubes and melted cheese, carbonara with extra cheese, fries without the cheese. So i went to melt some cheese.

Supposed to be served along with the fries but we didn't think about it before and when the cheese wasn't any hot any more it turned solid -_- even got the chao da part on the frying pan! but then we ate the chao da part also cuz it was nice :D it tasted like the pizza crust full of cheese! We rasa chio that night when we found out another way of cooking cheese.

Then Joan came over that night! To join the slumber party. I don't get why i was so tired early that night so i slept the earliest. The 3 of us slept together in one bed. And the bed ain't king sized, its only queen sized -_- so we squeezed. The guest room so nice lor cuz it ain't like any other guest room. Normally guest rooms look boring and dull but this one is so one of a kind, its like a hotel room T.T

Hannah taking photos of ppl who were trying to get some beauty sleep.

The only pic of Ash i could take from close up. He sho sexy.

Ohh did i mention the house has a really awesome balcony?? XD

Yes the balcony was that narrow but is so awesome yes i feel like a village kid now.

I could have posted up more photos but i took the photos without the owner's permission and its rude to do so, what more to say posting em out O.O but its not like ppl will break in her house cuz of that bah. I think.

I will fall asleep soon due to my sinus. But i shall stay awake! Its so hard to wanna skype with Jude lately :( I'm so addicted to SHINee's hello and and 2NE1's go away!!

Paramore's concert on Tuesday T.T

Misguided One

2010-10-09T03:17:00.000-07:00

I still feel like pooping. It's like i need permission to update my blog by pooping wtf.

And i didn't mean to update. Was suppose to submerge my head into my pillow and into my fantasy world but seems not like it.

Having to think about exams again making me not wanting to look forward into the future. Not having the most of courage to face against all whats coming in my life is really petrifying. It's already scary enough i can't study yet being not serious in my studies, what needless to say if i were to go to uni. It's like having to go through a severe case of misery and pain just to reach to the highest peak and to please everyone. What if it doesn't please one self? Having to engulf over so much menace just to get into a slim chance of bliss what seem to be like drug addicts fighting over ecstasy.

I just want to be normal.

A happy and loving family, not fake.

Having normal on-time meals like any other families have.

Taking up a course which i know is worth doing in life.

If possible, devoting in anyone's lives. However or wherever, whatever, you tell.

I just want my own life.

A life where it's just right. Eternity misery yet brief happiness. How possible to lead such life when life is given one chance to live. Striving over something you never thought you're going through but having to abandon something you loved for your eternal life.

Started off with ABC and with only less than 5 pages to read as a kid. Then now the older we get the more and smaller words can be, even like the size of an ant; just gives me massive heartthrobs.

I guess i can just cross my fingers, and hope that this path taken is right, now and the future.

At Nightfall I LOL

2010-10-09T02:22:00.000-07:00

I need to poop. But i'll ditch that desire first and go on with my blog. Oh wait.

*minutes in loo*

Yes i'm disgusting, even about pooing also need to tell blabla but this is my blog i type what i think about. Okay maybe not ALL lah. ANYWAY it's friday!! So what right? Well it felt weird for me cause i'm having exam starting this coming monday and i'm right here. Sitting. Awake at a time like this. ONLINE. I feel rather annoyed at myself. I think i couldn't sleep cuz i'm gonna sleep over at Hannah's aunty's place later :D One reason : Because i've been at home like a good kid for the past one month. The last time i hanged out with my gorgeous ones were like, a night for shisha with Belle and Chris? Oh but Chris is not gorgeous. Okay let's make it two reasons. Second reason : I actually have no idea.

Hee.

I'm just gonna get out of the house and talk REAL ENGLISH! I mean, i do talk english at home but i can't crap about with my family. Its still chinglish anyway. You know, chinese plus english equals chinglish.. that. Erm. So yeah. In school, i do speak english. Like 41.32%. (Yeah i admit i like to exaggerate at times. What? It makes the whole story more provoking. NOT.) And the rest of the dunohowmany percent goes to mandarin. I speak mandarin at home already enough it doesn't help me so much in life (K maybe a lil) but nao i have to speak more chinese?? Include the one in camp! I speak chinese most of the times also. Though it actually helps my mandarin getting better in only 2 months but still! I NO SPEAK GOOD2 CHINESE MANY.

I'm not trying to be english or american or even kek my bloody english, see i even speak manglish now! I just wanna speak english T.T is that so hard to happen? *weeps* Most of my classmates speaks chinese. They laugh at my chinese, why?

Case number one.

My translation of I'm hungry also! in mandarin is, Wo hen er ye shi!

And it's supposed to be, Wo ye shi hen er!

So you see? I translate my english to mandarin is like adjusting my face to my butt and my butt to my face. GAH another of Jude's figure of speech.

Seems like i don't have case number two since i've forgotten a particular phrase i've said to my classmates. So yeah, i'm a chinese yet i suck in chinese. I can hardly even read chinese! So english ftw! But i masih rasa korean at times XD

Oh i didn't mention why i'm sleeping over at Hannah's aunty's place hor? Cuz her aunt went travelling and needs someone to take care of her house which is by the beach (I know right!) and Hannah's afraid of ghost so I, the heroine of lifetime saves the day! Yes i know i'm like such a good friend aha.

No lah actually her aunt really did went for travelling and she needs someone to take care of her dog, Ash for her while she's away and so she asked Hannah, Hannah's dad won't allowed her to stay alone for the night due to this freak who stalked her before and so yeah, i'm there just to accompany yadayada. Hmph. But i'm still a life saviour XD I am the awesomest!

Yes awesome enough to even cried for watching Bolt. Remember Bolt? The animated superhero dog movie?

That cute white dog with the skinny black cat and squeezable mush wush hamster?? THAT MOVIE LAH! It's out ever since 2008 and i haven't watched it till now. Its like so awesome i cried T.T The ending was so sad bah :(

I am even more in love with Taemin nao. Why he so cute lah and the plus the ultimatum blissful hair!! T___T

I shall bury my head in my pillow.

Becuz i am sleepy.

Thank you head for being heavy. Amen.

Hello October Be Awesome

2010-10-03T17:38:00.000-07:00

WWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I FINALLY GOT MY HAIRCUT. And for once in my dreadful-but-not-so-dreadful-lah life im satisfied with it! Include the one when i first got my korean fringe :D

Though my cousin chopped off my korean fringe already but the new fringe is not bad enough. I just realized its thin! No more the thick korean fringe :( but ain't bad to have a new style right? Now i feel like i'm carrying silk around me since my hair is no more heavy. It is like the wind! I is happy. My cousin is awesome for being smart :D

Its fine that my hair didn't exactly looked like CL's, especially the fringe. But its like this!

Meeheehee. I didn't find for this. I found it in tumblr :D and it looked familiar, like mine! XD if not mistaken i think my hair length is more or less the same as hers also. Hayley you rock!! *fangirl screaming in background* at least my hair finally looked like one of my favorite stars' hair :D dream granted!

and i've just received a text from Hannah about her loving her new permed hair. Can't wait to see it! She's so gonna vain with her new look. And no, i didn't vain mine yet cause i'm too lazy kthxbai :D

P/s : I finally understand the definition of marketing!! Took me weeks to get it wtf. But its okay, hi hayley williams hair! *pats hair*

Oh Pressure

2010-10-01T23:01:00.000-07:00

I'msosleepyiwannasleep.

I'm still in the moment of not wanting to blog since i'm too lazy to wanna think to wanna update about. I mean, its October. Oh wait.

ITS OCTOBER.

ITS FUCKING OCTOBER ALREADY.

Okay no big deal. Its usually the critical time when schools have final exams and the nervous breakdown and tension. Well, except for my lil sis since she finished her elementary exam already; just waiting for her high school next year. Hip hip! My exam's a week away only and i'm still procrastinating. Imagine having to need to read a 400 paged book which is the size of the yellow book. Well DON'T imagine. It's so tragic!

And seriously, i am not in the mood to blog. Not at all. I'm only updating this time to waste time. NOT. Thats because Jude likes reading my blog i have no idea why. I find it boring myself cause i only update about stuff about me and my ranting about my saddened life, how sad is my cat, form6 torture and etc. And no, i don't own a cat. I'd prefer to have a dog :D So Jude, here you go :)

No it's not coming to an end yet. Since its october already, i'd better start off being serious with my studies. And i've been repeating that for the past few months but it never seemed to happen -_- i just have this habit of once-touching-the-laptop-i-won't-get-away-from-it and i think its bad ._. The horror how the hell am i suppose to survive through form6 like that?? Speaking of form6, i am elected as an ajk prefect! Okay no big. Its only the committee member thats in charge of the toilet. OF ALL PLACES I KNOW. But the toilet's cool. Cause its 2 blocks away from my block where my class is, so i can waste time :D

And is being a prefect so tough? I find it normal. But most ppl are quitting because they said its HARD and don't wanna be hated. WTF LAH. You wanna get praised and loved by ppl you go become celebrity, don't come school lah. Whats so hard. All you do is just tell them to put on their ties and tug in their shirts in but if they don't listen just jot down their bloody names. Is that so hard? But i guess its harder for the guys (prefects) since the boys are more aggressive. But still!! I smack.

Then one more thing. My sister told me that she found out being a prefect in high school doesn't do any good in universities. MA DER FA KER. And who the heck actually told me being a prefect can have higher chance to get in uni anyway? -_- i don't even know who fml.

I shall stop for now. My neck pain is killing the hell out of me.

Oh oh!! Charlie St Cloud is out in movies already! Obviously already premier in the US earlier, Malaysia bah what to do. I wanna watch! But Jude ain't here :'(

Goodbais for naos.

Fuck yeah taemin.

Puss With Boots

2010-09-28T23:58:00.000-07:00

Ppl are getting on my nerves lately. Can human be any more human? I just really don't understand some ppl. But its not like i wanna understand them too anyway. Trying to understand them is like making a pig talk. (OMG i sound like Jude here!)

Some ppl can be such hypocrites i'm so sick of em already. Ruthless mutherfuckers.

I shall end this right here! because i'm too lazy to wanna type heeheehee! XD

I LOVE JB!!

2010-09-27T23:13:00.000-07:00

And i meant Jude's butt XD Jokes.

AND NO I DON'T LOVE JUSTIN BIEBER TSK.

I'm just gonna update lil bout him, yes that kid whom everyone is annoyed at i don't even know why they're so displeased over one little innocent boy. Its not like he made the whole world have a crush on him especially the girls no matter young or old O.o wait he did right?

Whatever. The boy's got talent and he's got the pretty cute looks. I don't care if he flirts with his babysister or dates older girls, he is just capable of singing. Even if he owns Megan Lee's voice.

Here's Common Denominator. Its actually nice O.O but his songs are always nice.

AND HE CAN SING LIVE. I didn't watch the whole live video of him singing this song cos i got annoyed with his face halfway through -_- Guess his voice will just do :D omg even Taylor Swift kalah to him in live. She can hardly sing high tone but this boy can SOAMAZINGIWANTHISVOICE then he can get my voice nyahaha.

I shall stop here.

I have muet speaking exam tomorrow the horror i'm so nervous hopefully i don't stutter alot.

Goodbais nao.

Belly Potter in The Run

2010-09-25T03:35:00.000-07:00

I found it! The secret hallway to hogwarts! Even lil kids knows i'm kidding.

This video is where i found the only picture with CL's gorgeous hair! T_T

Gosh why her hair so nice. And i just noticed each of 2ne1 got different hair color! CL with blonde *sizzles*, Minzy with black lol so typical, Bom with purple gila nice but okay nia lah and Dara with the regular brownish color. CL reminded me of GD; the way they rap, the style and their character in the music.

Anyway it is time. To go back to my dormitory before Professor Snape caught me onlining secretly in the hallway. I think Peter Pettigrew is stalking me ._. HORROR VOLDEMORT IS AFTER ME. *sways wand*

Seriously i think i'm lack of sleep.

Cheese Off

2010-09-25T02:28:00.000-07:00

Liking your own status can be the least thing you should do in facebook. Even in life. I mean, how is it precise you liking you own status when you posted up something like,"Ooh my mum tripped off the stairs." or "I just broke up with him :(".

If you want attention you can just seek attention somewhere else and then do whatever you want to your bloody sentence. Like it, love it or worship it if you want. But don't post up something in fb which is ridiculously absurd to be like it yourself.

I recommend twitter. Or better tumblr and best you know now is blog kan even better. Can post long beautiful sentences as you like. Can even change font type and colours. You want bold or italic anyhow also can. Post pictures with your broken up boyfriend also no problem.

Liking your own status is not gonna make you chio for having a mum in wheel chair what is more to say splitting up with someone you love most. You stupid kah. Need me to help like also i can help. Just don't emo and like it on your own anyway.

I can understand you have problems. But since when does ppl like their own problems? You like crying so much is it you can cry all you want bah but i never know ppl like crying. Even orang congek also don't like crying okay.

I BREATHE.

But since fb is unrestricted for anything what can i do. Patience.

Smack me if you want i'm just saying something which gives you less problem to deal with.

Fuzz Muzz

2010-09-25T01:50:00.000-07:00

I've been wanting to cut my hair since forever.

I realized i've always gone for haircut but then it stays the same. Not much difference in it.

But lately, i noticed it has grown already! It has reached my boobs! XD And i so want it to be longer than that. So it should be beyond the hills. YES I WAS TOLD I HAVE HILLS INSTEAD OF MOUNTAINS -_- Which boyfriend actually said that to their girlfriend? *pushes Jude off the cliff*

Anyway i might have save him already before he even falls off the cliff.

The last time i wanted to cut like this.

And it turned out like this.

Ignore the other girl :D This photo was taken during camp in february. Oo! The date and time is even stated on the right side of the photo. And i trimmed my hair 2 months before i went to camp. Duh it grew and doesn't have any similarity with anything to do with younha's hair! :( Even after i have it cut. Mum's friend just doesn't know how to cut my hair.

Then i wanna have Hayley Williams'.

ZOMG she's so pretty!! *pulls hair* Okay enough crying. It was the first time then when i went over to my cousin's salon. I don't even know he owns a salon. Worse part of all, i don't even know he's my cousin. Nor having a cousin who freaking owns a salon. So yeah, Hannah went with me and actually showed him this picture and he was like, don't get bothered bout how thin is her hair, its just the angmo color which makes it so thin. Okay yeah whatever, he didn't trim my hair so much but i loved my fringe! The only changes about the haircut was well, my fringe?

It turned out like this.

The fringe doesn't even look like the one i wanted ujsdfhoishoeif but it was good enough :D I looked fat in the kimono. I shall remind myself never to wear kimono again. but it was so comfyyy!!

Its been months i haven't got my haircut. And the last time i got it, my fringe was horrid. It doesn't goes the way i want it to be. Think my cousin was lazy to cut it that time since there wasn't any customers in the shop =/

So now, since my fringe is beyond my eyes already i shall wanna get it trim. And also get the roots straighten! If that can give me the finishing touch of my fringe, i'd want to. So it'll look more natural and less flatness and bushiness. Then i found this :D

I didn't actually found it. Hannah told me about 2ne1's mv Go Away and so i watched it. CL SO HOT I WANNA DIE WHEN I SEE HER HAIR. So yes, that picture above is CL. Her hair wasn't exactly like that in the mv, it was neat. My fringe is not THAT long enough to be like that. Nor the volume and texture of it T.T Plus the thickness of my hair, mmg cannot have that hair. But i can try :D and i like her shades heehee.

I still love Taemin's hair T.T but on second thought, i want long hair. His hair is not long enough, the only thing i wanted is his fringe. WOOH.

I am still considering Hayley's hair :D Yes, quite similar to the above. Who ask her hair to be so nice.

So the question is, would i be able to get any of their hairstyle from this?

Erm. Yea.

And to this.

A video of CL's hair! XD Blonde hair is nice. Agree? :D

I'm already few hours late, but i'm sure it doesn't matter.

Its been two months already, and i still stay the same.

Crazing over you and not wanting to wipe out any split second we had as one.

Though sometimes i think i'm still such a fuss about space between us,

I'm trying anyhow i can to persevere and go along with it.

I feel cheesier than ever -_-

Haiyah easiest words to say lah.

Oi Jude. I love you :P

Happy 2 Months Anniversary :)

That was easy. Rather than saying those lovey doveys which i'm bloody nasty with.

I shall end this nao. Goodebye.

Autumnised My Way!

2010-09-22T22:58:00.000-07:00

I am too lazy to wanna update already. But its the moon cake festival! And the park of famed are packed with humans! I just went over to Guardian to get deodorant but Guardian was closed. (so yea i use deodorant, it makes me feel cleanererrrrerr.) How can it closed so early?! Its only 9 freaking pm. So ended up dad drove over to Upwell (Yes dad still drives me around, he just won't let me drive alone. Bah.) and the place was so empty. Turned out half of Kuching are at friendship park or either the supermarket is always deserted.

Dad was annoyed the whole way throughout the congestion; complaining and cursing bout how inconsiderate and brainless some ppl can be. He meant the ppl on the road. Its like the kuching festival where congestion tend to happen there and every chinese ppl in the city appears to be there. Which was what to be seen around the park.

I can't even stand crowds in kuching festival what more to say in friendship park. The place is even more crammed with couples and i would burst into tears if i see couples. NOT. Okay maybe i'll feel sorta a little kinda a teeny weeny remote since my hands are right where Jude's fingers fit perfectly.

So yea. Yo did asked the girls to play lanterns.. somewhere. But duh, obviously its gonna be at friendship park already. I reckon dad will nag even more than mum. Imagine mum nags for 48 hours straight.

Plus, i don't play lanterns anymore. I just don't seem to have the IWANNAPLAYLANTERNSOMGOMG mood. If i were in China or Hongkong or Taiwan, i'll probably be playing already :D since i can just play it anywhere and its even way WAY more cool anyway.

But lanterns are so pweetiiieeee T_T

Anyway i shall continue with my dollhouse! Its addictive like REALLY! like sugar :( Like Jude :)

Will you meet me for five minutes?

2010-09-21T22:32:00.000-07:00

I am finally online! School started yesterday and i am exhausted shit already. Can you believe me kept falling asleep during lesson? Its been going on since yesterday and even today. Hopefully tomorrow i'll feel better, maybe i should sleep later. Or maybe my body is just malfunctioning against the idea of going school. AND ECON IS GETTING MORE DIFFICULT THAN EVERRRR I CAN CRY. Its so demanding, even Mr Matthew who taught me EST last year, said. So how am i gonna survive through form6? Wa beh cai. I don't even bother to struggle for it so how is it possible for me to wanna pass the bloody subject? Oh wait. I DID pass the subject. In fact, i passed all my 5 of my subjects! Excluding business. I got an F for that. Err.

Anyway, i think i'm officially a prefect now. It's awesome just standing at one place and note down names for those who are late or not wearing proper attire or whatsoever. NOT. It's okay. Just that i kept assigned to work at the back gate of the school where flies tend to stick to me. I DON'T SMELL LEH. My lil sister thinks the flies were attracted to my fair skin -_- since the other two prefects working at the same place with me are tanned. I shall bring flies repellent to school! If that thing even existed.

And going through stomach pain for 5 periods in school was vile. A period of lesson equals at least 35minutes. So 5 periods equals 2 hours 55minutes. Hmm i need to get more work done on my math. Jeez i love math. So yeah. Too much cheese perhaps?

Ohh ohh! I have finally went to Delize. Actually been there since last week already but yeah. The place was awesome. Especially the food, the bakery!

Strawberry pudding with blueberry topping! Its already half eaten by me, it was nicer before i ate it. But ohh well. It tasted like concentrated yogurt in a way but its also nice :D There were other flavors too i wonder how vanilla tasted like. Vanilla yogurt O.o

And also half eaten blueberry apple crumble! :D It was damn filling but i didn't finish it i also dunno why. There was chicken quiche! And chicken salad. Not to forget the chocolate danish. Damn i love Delize.

I shall continue with my Dollhouse. Its so addictive i can't seem to stop watching it.

And i've been heeding onto this song since i knew about it!

Till then.

P/s : 69 days to December and babeh XD

We Could Happen

2010-09-16T03:22:00.000-07:00

Homg i so love this song already. And yes its in the morning. I'm gonna sleep right after i posted this awesome video!

So i shall officially sleep now. Happy Malaysia Day whoever that loves Malaysia. I can't admit that i do :P

Its A Shame Im a Dream

2010-09-15T19:18:00.000-07:00

Ever since Jude went back, i thought i'd rot at home. Seems not. I totally have not forgotten bout my girls, thats for sure. Its sorta exasperating that time incline to pass so fast when we forget bout the world and just enjoy till the end. And yes indeed i meant my sleepover i had with Mich and Hannah the two animals!

I actually slept early that night when i went over which is a miracle. I USUALLY SLEEP LATE. So yeah, its weird when i sleep early unless i went out the whole day before the sleepover which i didn't. Hopefully those two humans didn't do anything to me when i was sleeping. Cause they told me i snored in my sleep -_- I DONT SNORE. Like seriously. I think. Aaaanyway, like always, i nearly froze to death in my sleep cause the room was really cold. Even when the aircon is 24 degree celcius! But we woke up and played Game of Life straight away. Just odd as it sounds -_-

Went over to Swinburne to pick up MJ! And off to Bing in town. My usual menu, melted brownies with whipped cream YUMM!

And it cost only RM6! Can you imagine such mouthwatering food cost this little? Its so affordable i can eat it everyday. Yet its filling alright so a brownie for lunch is sorta worth it XD And no, chocolate doesn't make ppl fat. Why? I can explain why. I just need to find my english file... and ok there. HA JUST KIDDING. I don't know, seriously i don't. But i do know chocolates can't make us fat! Google about it, if english in science and technology can proof it, why cant simply just science?

At first we were having trouble searching for a parking spot cause the parking lot was full! Plus an elementary school which name i have forgotten had classes going on and it was lunch time, so yeah parents are picking up their children home. After 3-4 rounds we found a parking space on the yellow line :D who cares its illegal just park nia. Ppl starving already.

I'm gonna hunt for the caesar salad and lasagne the next time! But i doubt if i would go there again anytime soon since there will be no holidays after this week. Ohh well. November will do :D

After spending about 45 minutes in Swinburne just hanging around in the library, we dumped MJ back in her college and off we went to Spring. Yes that huge boring asian mall again. NO IM NOT BEING RACIST. That place is always full of chinese ppl. Oops correction. Chinese lian ppl. IM NOT BEING LIAN-IST EITHER. Its just the fact. Course there are still normal ppl and other races lah. We wasted time by wandering around in MPH and C&K. The must-go-in shops in Spring when we got nothing to do. Including the toilets :D

I found this book! It was cute thats why i took picture of it.

I couldn't help laughing at the caption underneath the title. Can you actually read that tiny little words? "Just the thing to heal a broken heart." This may sound stupid but i agree with that; even with the worse human on earth who you least love the most gave you sth like that manage to pull up pieces of your broken heart and make it whole again. But on second thought, nah. French kissing is breathtaking and just beautiful. Though i think normal kisses are just incredible enough just the way it is. Especially from someone whom you're secretly in love with and actually loves you back :)

Next pit stop. Charles & Keith. Now it does makes me curious why charles and keith managed to produced such lovely creations.

I STILL WANT GLADIATORS. And more of them! My first and last gladiator was from C&K too and it got scratched on the tip at the first time i wore it. Yes i feel that my feet aren't born for lovely shoes like C&K. Not even shoes at all. Maybe high cut sneakers will do. Since my heels are abandoned in the corner for 2 years already and not been touched for months anyway. Now i understand why certain girls think they're better to be born as lads now -_-

Now I'm just bloody plain curious bout PADINI. What to be curious about when its already in Malaysia kan? I know. But i'm just annoyed at the fact that stuff there are sometimes so unreasonable ufhsiuhwiebfuif yes im a typo. Price are unreasonable but nonetheless worth playing around with the stuff.. without having to break em or anything.

If your eyes are sharp enough. Notice that key chain that spelled LOVE? I WANT IT YES I REALLY FUCKING DO. And it cost around 30bucks and above if im not mistaken. The price is sorta rational enough since that key chain is really one hell gorgeous thang. And it comes in various colors; blue, red, gold, silver and bronze. That above in the picture is the silver one. I WANT ALL CAN. But i'd rather want those cute tees with funny words. Ohh well :D

Later that night which was last night, we went over to Yong Su Ice Cream for ice cream! Lol i feel dumb. Anyway i missed the yogurt ice cream! It was dang. Just nice.

I like it with the cone waffle but i couldn't help not holding onto my cell and text like mad or going fb. So yeah, there were no other optimal besides the cup. Yogurt with strawberry syrup I LIKE! Oh and Mich's hand. I wish i can serve myself with yogurt ice cream everyday cause its one thing which makes me feel content without knowing it. Even during those coming days when i have to die along with my menstrual cycle bah.

I'm gonna miss everything; the fun, the laughter, the people. People. This sounded like i'm gonna leave the world or sth -_- I just don't want future to appear so fast but yet at the same time, want it to emerge quickly. Can we just skip October and move on to November? I dislike October. Not plainly because its Hannah's month of birth but its cause i have exam. I loathe exam. I am allergic to exam. I'll just get straight to the point.

I DISLIKE FORM6.

There. I said it. Largest font and in bold. Ain't that hard. Just need a couple of Hershey's to type that out. Yes its been months -- 5 months i've been in form6 and i'm still complaining. Its like i'm living onto my destiny and not doing anything about it. It would not be shocking if i didn't get good results since i cant possibly score for something i dislike. But to think about the people around me who are putting hopes and faith in me, i think i'll crush them down like how i did about my SPM result. By now they should have known its disappointing to do so. Putting high hopes in me that is.

But the nonetheless, i'll still try. I mean, we could only live just bloody once. Why not make the best of it? Gah. I still don't get why Jude can score straight As in SPM but he can't even remember having me in his kindergarten -_-

We the foolish looked just awesome.

Now & Then

2010-09-13T01:18:00.000-07:00

Chris came back from KL! Not that i know he's been there for a week. And so we went out again. After not meeting one another for a month plus. Belle, Chris and i, the three musketeers went out hunting for cool places to go. We have this habit of going out every now and then at random times and telling each other bout places to go to but ended up going to the same place. But as always, we'll end up eating first. Its like its a MUST DO thing when we go out. I suggested Kado, and well, it wasn't that bad. Not the place, but the idea.

I knew my sister was gonna have dinner with her friends there and well, Belle searched for a place where we wouldn't meet our sisters there. Not that we're ashamed with them or anything. I mean, meeting your sibling at the same place at the same time? Hmm just awkward but not that awkward lah. Its just the oh-shit-my-sister's-here-lets-scram! kinda thing. But oh well, so yeah we did find for a place where ppl can hardly notice us, thinking that they would be sitting at the bigger space. Ended up they sat next to us -_- so whatever. I love the grilled lamb burger BRUBFDUIFE its awesome cause its handmade.

Later then we went over for shisha! Fuh. Belle's first time ever and she sucked at the first few puffs but later, she was having fun with it. And Chris kept blowing it to our hair -_- like as if our hair can make fire with it. But its awesome alright! Having to shisha and talk crap at the same time like no one's business. The place's even better than Little Lebanon! Cause even after 9pm, shisha is still open, unlike LL. But i forgot whats that place called. SHIIIIIISHAAAAA. Stupid Chris said i looked like a smoker cause i'm fair. WHAT! *grumbles* i should stay under the sun for a day so i'll get tan. But its not like i'll get that tan since my skin is easily turning back to fair again cibet.

So whats next? After having the whole week out with Jude, and a whole sunday night with the random nightout peeps, this week will be more to the besties! Yes finally am gonna have some time with Mich. Hopefully Hannah too since i haven't been seeing her ever since the beach plan. I'll be over at Mich's tomorrow! AWESUMMMMM. And MJ? Totally no news -_-

The tilted heads and smiles -_- i is like . WOOOOOOOOO

Ain't Forever

2010-09-13T00:36:00.000-07:00

I still remember back when I was all so hyped up over the weeks and days. Counting down days; even during difficult or happy moments i moved on knowing what i'm searching for in future is something i've been waiting for all along. And yes, it happened.

Jude came back :)

It was awesome even in a week. A week felt like only a day. In a blink of an eye, he's back in Miri and here once more, i'm starting with another count down. A new one in fact, and longer one. Bigger obstacles and longer timing i have to deal with. Yet the moment being in bliss is so short i just want everything to stop right there. But yeah, life. Impossible for time to just stop ticking and let that moment be there forever. I wish it will.

10 weeks. Possible to go through that? I think so :D I mean, one month is just a couple of months. 4 weeks to be exact; schools, homeworks, meetings; yeah it'll help me forget bout counting down days alright but after that, what? Now 2 months. I is shall bury myself in bed for 2 months. I know i'll go through, and i know i'll go through hard times. Since exam's in october and i'm still playing around not being serious with my studies. I should get going already. Getting a B+ in Muet ain't gonna help me in anything at all. What more to say an F in business -_-

Cherish the moment. CHERISHED. But moving on. Ohh! And raya :) raya was okay, i diarrhea-ed as usual. Happens every year in raya. Amat menyedihkan i think the food like to war in my stomach.

Ohh and p/s :

I dislike my smile -_- but its the only pic we had together :D candid some more.

Paramore Much

2010-09-10T21:49:00.000-07:00

I think i'm in the Paramore mood.

WHY.

Well thats cause i want Paramore's songs to be in my phone. Okay scratch that last. Belle's phone. HEE. Long story. Point is, I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT PARAMORE'S MUSIC. The only Paramore song in BELLE'S PHONE is thats what you get. And i'm not satisfied because i want more of brand new eyes' songs! T_T I know its easy. Just get the freakin cable and shut up. But i don't have the freaking cable how am i suppose to bloody transfer the songs to my phone from the laptop. Cibet. I texted my sister for her cable but she ain't replying me yet. Can't blame ._. she's probably having fun now since its (duh) raya.

BUT I IS WANT CABLE NAO!

Breathe bel breathe.

So while waiting, i'm looking for more of Paramore whatever new thingy in youtube. And i found this, i nearly fainted.

From what i read from the comments, she was sick. That was why her voice sorta hoarse. BUT STILL! People who are sick can sing that well? Gila nice. Whoever dislike these is stupid and just stupid.

OHH AND MY SISTER JUST REPLIED ME BACK HER CABLE IS IN HER LAPTOP BAG shit am i telling the whole world how to rob her cable now? OHH WELL YESSSSSSSSSSSS!

Amen. Praise the Lord i shall go transfer my awesome songs now! I IS HAPPY.

P/s : Jude i know you're reading this :P stalkerrrrrr.

Ultimatum

2010-09-06T17:26:00.000-07:00

I'M HUNGRY AND BORED I WANNA GO OUT AND DIP MYSELF IN THE POOL.

THERE'S A CAR BUT I CAN'T DRIVE IT

PATHETIC MUCH?

PATHETIC YES.

and i miss Jude.

Mind-numbing

2010-09-06T16:38:00.000-07:00

The name Isabel is originated from Greek.

Awesome.

And the name Jude is from Hebrew.

Awesomer.

Yes i'm so that lifeless to googled about that -_-

One of the disadvantages of holidays. Im gonna become bored to death.

Rigid baby. Rigid.

Prints

2010-09-05T18:03:00.000-07:00

Pictures can say a thousand things

but every one has different meanings behind each photos

whether enthusiasm

something you love

someone you lost

or being able to share your world.

needs more pictures to be explain.

Corner

2010-09-05T17:27:00.000-07:00

I wish you knew what i knew. Sometimes i even wonder if you knew it was obvious enough that i knew a part of your secret. Probably the biggest secret ever. I wish you knew how great you are in my heart, that i'll always look up to you no matter what. I wish you'd just say you're sorry one day about what you did. I wish you'd understand how i'd feel if you knew. I wish you would talk to me about it, coz you see, i don't mind sharing problems. I wish you would be what or who you really are, or at least be someone i really thought you are. I wish you would start telling me the truth. Coz i see it in you, that you're keeping something from me. No, not only me but everybody. I wish you would know how agony it is knowing you were like any other people whom i loathed. That you were a special and different one in my 17 years.

I wish you would just stop doing whatever you're doing now. I don't mind not studying either to just work and take care of you with the salary i get. But like you care. I wish you could understand why i'm not saying anything; not bursting your bubbles or even ask you about it. But you'd just go along with it and make my everyday just drenched down. I wish you knew you were the most filling minded and meaningful man i know. I wish you knew how much i want everything to be back so badly and that was why i didn't do anything about it. I wish you would have been more responsible enough. Not raising another human in your life.

I wish you could know how much i wanted to smile like mad when people say,"I wish my dad was like your dad."

Heroic Me?

2010-09-05T17:00:00.000-07:00

Yeah. So here i am again. About to complain bout another part of me again. Its so annoying having to know i tend to complain alot. Imagine me complaining more when i'm already old O.o okay shudders. So here's the thing. I.. er come to think it, i shouldn't say it here. Just in case, problem is, i need to lay it out! Sucks not telling anyone about it except Hannah. Well its not like i wanna make it a big thing or anything. K whatever.

Just get to the awesome thing. JUDE'S BACK! Yes. My countdown over the past few weeks ever since he left is sorta worth it. Not only the countdown. The feeling of something missing in me, the eh-you-wanna-go-out-tonight msgs.. is all worth it. Priceless. Though it'd only be for a week i'm gonna make it happen. Not THAT happening -_- I just didn't think a few words could break his heart. Sucks much knowing that i myself hated that word but still i could use it on him.

Now i gotta pluck up my courage and do what i wanna do! Just for the sake of a person who's super important to me. I don't even know why i'm doing it for. . .

Now i think i got phobia-ed more of that word.

You No Speak English

2010-09-02T22:06:00.000-07:00

I find it funny with ppl who looked like they can speak good english but they have bad english when it comes to speaking it. HAHAHA sorry i'm not saying my english is good or whatsoever but i mean, cmon. Imagine a girl who has this mix angmo chinese face, suddenly she speaks broken chinese. Like really broken ones. Not only with the manglish but really lian plus beng sorta chinese. Well i guess what im speaking now is manglish. Whats the broken chinese im saying bout?

Eh your hair de colour so nice.

No la is like that de ma.

Jiu your fault lor.

And the lian beng language?

Haixx like that de lorxx.

Heheks that day ma i went a shop the boii so q~

Anything that ends with x or double x or whatsoever. Hmm.. maybe i over exaggerated too xD

Notice the unknown angmo words? Yes. That. Weird thing is, i, who have super chinese face (although i've always wanted to be told i look like a mix korean or sth) cant speak chinese well. And yes, ppl do think i cant speak chinese either. BUT I CAN. Just ain't that good. And another strange thing is, ppl even said i dont look chinese. If i dont, i look like what lah? Korean zit? CAAAANNN. Well i admit that i am mix sth else, indonesian per se but i'm only 25% of it wtf so i still have the super imsochineselook! face.

I came by a girl's blog. Well she LOOKED like she can speak good english. No scratch that last. She looked like someone who can speaks english. Her english was remarkably awesome alright. YES SENSE THE SARCASM. Why does ppl like that wants to own a blog? -_- Okay im out of the loop.

I think i was too bored till i have to complain about ppl like that ._.

Tomorrow's the day! *drum rolls* WEE! XD

Paramorelised Me

2010-09-02T20:04:00.000-07:00

I remember telling Jude this only weeks ago.

"I shall go Paramore's concert one day!"

And guess what, Paramore's concert is a month away from now. Worse part is, Hannah's going and i'm not! Okay maybe it ain't that bad. Its just bad that I'M NOT GOING.

but HANNAH'S GOING WTF IUFDNIUHFWOIEHF9O

I IS SHALL BREATHE.

I think i'm paramore sick until i'm looking for their 2010 tour; Singapore, Newzealand, Manila.

SHIT I WANNA GO SO MUCH. Imagine. Paramore coming to KL. Kuala Lumpur for heaven's sake! Its only a freaking plane away and i'll be there but major prob is, i CAN'T go either. Stupid exam will be going on that time. And even if there's no exam, i would probably end up at home and throw tantrums even more because i couldn't go. Well, at least there's sth to be blame for :D

BUT STILL!

PARAMOREPARAMOREPARAMOREHAYLEYPARAMOREPARAMORE.

I'm too annoyed with life so i shall stop here.

P/s : I wish for a bag of million dollars in front of my front house tomorrow. Amen.

So Jude, i can't go Paramore's concert after all D:

Tae In My Bed

2010-08-30T00:05:00.000-07:00

HOLY SHIAT.

Weeks ago, i'm in love with Lucifer. And i was also in love with Taemin's hair. But now, i think i'm in love with Taemin's face too. Meh. Is it just me or i really have somethin for pretty guys. Hmm i think its just me. Because Jude ain't Mr Pretty. He is just plain hot. Okay enough bragging bout him or he'll go sky high.

Back to Taemin. YES TAEMIN'S GOT PRETTY HAIR. I want his hair; the texture, the volume, the colour, the length, the style. Face also can. Please oh please hair, be like Taemin's. Amen. If only my hair can grow short and thin instead of vice versa.

I shall post pics of his hair which made me so jealous every night and day.

See the way the hair drops! Its so NATURAL I COULD ALMOST DIE. FRINGGGGGGE *dies*

Despite the sexy lips, THE HAIR IS SO CHIO LAH. I. WANT. THE. HAIR.

Taemin in this pic somehow reminded me of Chuan -_- ew. Ignore the face, hair is just bloody awesome.

Even in a ponytail also awesome enough. WHY.

I DIE.

Wavy? *hugs pc screen*

T_T haaaair. *faintscauseofexpression*

How possible can a guy's hair be that soft and nice? I'm so bloody jealous i could shoot a cow now. Even a girl's hair cant be that nice! Okay excluding females from korea. And some ppl -_- *annoyed*

Lets see the ultimate movement of his hair!

*orgasm*

And of all the pics, i nearly lose my eyes when i see this. It wasn't only because of his hair.

Explain. Boy with pretty face or just a really, really pretty faced boy?

I shall cut my hair like that when i managed to persuade dad to bring me to cousin's salon.

End of a fan girl's story.

Star No Plane

2010-08-29T01:55:00.000-07:00

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

NO I DON'T WANT PRETEND I WANT IT REAL SJDFHBUISDFHS.

Goddamned planes.

Bite It

2010-08-29T01:46:00.000-07:00

I'm like so bored i'm gonna die. And my little toe is killing me cause of the blister i have due to badminton. Yes, i finally went for badminton this morning. *applause* But i only played an hour cause i was lazy already. How possible to get sexy muscled legs if i keep going on this way? Possible. In 5 decades time. By then i'll be playing in a wheel chair.

Well hopefully i'll be able to sleep later. And wake up after twelve :D Cause i really need sleep and not naps in the afternoons anymore since i've been napping every afternoon. Not napping actually, more to sleeping. Okay yawns. AND I JUST REMEMBERED I DIDN'T DO MY REPORT WRITING. This happens when i just fall on bed and lie there forever. So how tempting is the bed? Correction. My bed. VERY tempting. Its so tempting i can lie there for the rest of the day just lying and texting dear. Which i just did hours ago and he called. Okay no more further infos xD

I'll be out today with the two potatoes! Ze MJ and ze Hannah. Well since Vic doesn't online so often i'll just blab it out here hee! We're going out to get Vic's birthday present and her birthday's like a week away. A day after Jude's back from Miri! *skipping around* Okay back to the point. Hopefully we manage to get something for her. And HOPEFULLY i won't spend so much on food. HOPEFULLY i have enough cash for the coming holidays T_T. Ooh yes! Speaking of holidays, raya's around the corner and there'll be school holidays for 2 weeks! OHH YEAH. But doesn't mean i can not revise since semester exam is 3 weeks away once holiday is over. Gosh what a bummer. Exam for 2 weeks some more? Having a text for a week, i nearly died already. And now exam. 2 bloody weeks. Then i'll be die-er lah? -_- So imagine STPM. Gotta prepare a coffin. Maybe i could do the papers in the coffin.

OHH OHH! Hannah told me Paramore's going to KL on the 19th October. OH MAI GAD. I can cry. Having Paramore so far away from Malaysia is already oh so tempting and now having them to perform in KL which is millions of miles away from here?? Yes i cry-er. Then Snsd, Big Bang, FT Island, Infinite and SHINee is going Singapore on the 23rd October. I can cry my eyes out. WHY OH WHY I'M BORN IN KUCHING. Of all places, kuching?! Fine. I should be grateful since Kuching is known for its no war and bloody phenomenas thing. Bah. Ohh wait. I AM grateful. I would not have meet Jude if it wasn't for Kuching. TEEHEE. And bonus for my awesome friends and life. Nggaaaa ohh wells :)

BUT WHY DOES KUCHING HAVE TO BE SMALL! Could the sky at least be lil bit more generous? Drop millions of cash in my room so i can get tickets to watch em love in SG and KL pls kthxbai.

May all my wishes come true. I wanna see a shooting star. Jude's seen it. My sister's seen it. But dad hasn't. Lol.

So i shall sleep now to wishingland.

Ps : *clears throat* 5 days!

Quins & Williams

2010-08-28T01:14:00.000-07:00

Herro. I think i got influenced by Adrian for using this way of saying hello. Its annoying -_-

I'm not supposed to online more than 2 hours actually. In fact, dad wouldn't even really let me online. He thinks i'll stay forever with the laptop once i lingered on to it. Well i can't deny that but at least 5 hours will do. 2 hours is too short! I can only type facebook and probably still youtube-ing in only 2 hours. I don't know what i usually do though every time i online. Besides fb-ing and youtube that is.

Anyways, can i be any more paranoid?

If this guy keeps sending you texts and at first you reply him. Later then you got kinda annoyed cause he kept asking stupid questions like,"What you're doing?" Fine with that, but if the person tend to ask you that when you already said you were doing something? THAT is really infuriating. Course ppl will stop replying already. Then that person will keep on pestering you asking where'd you go, why no reply and bloody more etc. Seriously. Why would anyone wanna do that? Vic thinks he likes me -_- okay even IF he does, doesn't he get the point there already? I feel mean in a way. Wait i am mean when it comes to issues like this. And if he doesn't. . i think i'm just being plain evil. Who knows he just wanted someone to talk with. But still it creeps the hell out of me.

And!

I've just found out about Tegan and Sara. Actually Hannah told me about them earlier, but i wasn't that enthralled i guess. Until i saw em with Hayley Williams in facebook. They looked cute! Which made me fascinated cause the 3 of em looked so cute together!

And one of their songs is nice! Nineteen :D

Acoustic sounded better than the original. Thats what i think :P

I shall try to sleep! 6 days to go! *excitedddddd*

Fusion

2010-08-27T00:25:00.000-07:00

HA! IknewitiknewitiknewitiknewitiknewitIKNEWIT!

The dancers in Bieber's Somebody To Love? I was sure there were from some tv dance show. It was America's Best Dance Crew. And those dancers are called the Poreotics. And they're from the show. I supposed they won.

I came by nigahiga's Best Crew vs Poreotics. Thought they seemed familiar again. WOW i wonder what other music video they'll be in besides Bieber's cause they can really move. Wooh.

I feel annoyed watching this -_- maybe cause it was annoyingly funny. Hahahahha.

And also this!

But i still like Skitzo better! xD

Anyway i'm gonna faint anytime cause i've been in front of the laptop since 7pm.

Need. more. sleep.

Hit And Miss

2010-08-26T23:21:00.000-07:00

I wanna be a billionaire so freaking bad.

Yes tell me who doesn't wanna be rich. Having all those cash instead of credit cards (but credit cards are easier to carry since a person's rich already anyway) and getting anything you want in this world? Its not only like a dream come true. Its as if you had just woken up from some bad dream where you were working relentlessly 24/7 or walking in MNG and SONY shops and walking out empty handed or having to watch old folks and children begging across the streets yet you can't seem to do anything to help em out. Next thing you know, you have all the money you wanted and just go ahead doing whatsoever you want, going wherever that brings out the hell out of you. "Why can't money just fall from the sky." Mum, if that happens, banks would insolvent by then. And the world economy will boost like mad whether in a good or horrible way. And i won't have to stay in form6. HA.

Be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it all.

Do genies exist? And can shooting stars really grant wishes? Or conceivable a wishing well? Believing in these are like believing in ghosts. You either are, or you aren't or perhaps both. Anybody's got a wish; in any forms, rich or poor, smart or less smart (there's no human on earth who are stupid, even though ppl tend to scold each other every now and then. Okay maybe some ppl who just got this bloody sense of stupor) , beautiful or ugly and etc. The poor wishing to be rich but not vice versa, rich wishing for fame, fat wishing to be slim, and some ppl whose got everything; money and bits and pieces and the life, wishing for good health. Well some ppl just got everythin they wanted but sometimes too much of it can be a burden which leads to what? Greed and sorrow. I feel like i'm writing an essay -_-

Fuck you very, very much.

The F word. Very crude yet pleasurable at the same time. Like living in a life where you're apt to howl at anyone and anything at anywhere anytime and then feel satisfied? But in a way which sends guilt in you especially to religious ppl. Even random small matters managed to turn you mad for irrational reasons. Schools, colleagues, families. The major issues in life. So what if the word is harsh, it expresses ways of ppl bout their impression on things. Sometimes its a way to release anger. Hmm guess thats my way. Course it isn't the best solution.

Because for me it is love.

Anything can be endured just as long you have the determination and the will. So why do ppl still commit suicide over jobs and exams and cause your boyfriend is cheating on you? Its not like its the freaking end of the world. It could be the end of your world, but not THE world. If its the end of your career, just freakin start a new career. World can be that small when you meet the ppl pf ppl whom you and your friends know. But the world is big enough for a jobless person to start a new one. So tell me why there are lotsa beggars on the street again? -_- whatever. When there's a will to start sth, you need the determination. With that, a motivation is necessary to keep going on. From there, anything could be a miracle. Apart from God, family and friends give you what you want. Live a century, then you'll find out reasons why they do so much. Unintentionally but from the heart.

Hey Jude

Equals love. Need to describe more? XOXO :)

Weird Much

2010-08-25T17:31:00.000-07:00

Is it just me cause i feel like the whole world suddenly collapse down on me. Maybe its just me.

Sometimes i wish how one word can describe everythin out.

Hotsiie

2010-08-25T17:10:00.000-07:00

I want a new haircut again.

I think i never had a new haircut since ... last year -_- i kept cutting my hair this year but it still looks the same. The only changes is my fringe. From typical straight which shows more of my forehead to the korean fringe i've always wanted. Well it grew and i cut it again just last two weeks ago. Now its not korean anymore. Its . . i dunno. Just another typical cacat-ed fringe.

And my hair is HEAVY. Its been heavy ever since the day i noticed it was heavy. Now its heavier. So i came by Lucifer and saw Taemin.

Guy with gray sweat shirt and skinny black jeans with awesome shoes, not to forget gorgeously outstanding hair. I never notice him. In fact, i never notice SHINee that much until Ring Ding Dong. Now Lucifer, yes im lovin the dancing and song and now Taemin's hair.

Want that hair T.T

I don't mind if i have to switch hair with him. Switch body also can since he's beautiful in a way.

Blooming Month

2010-08-25T16:15:00.000-07:00

ITS BEEN A MONTH OMG! Wait, is it? It is right. The last time i updated was *counting fingers* yes, a month ago alright. During that month i was almost bored to tears. It was so rigid i could almost faint at one spot. Laptop was dead and test was vile enough. It was my first test in form 6 some more! Can you imagine getting an F in business?! Well not surprising to parents since i dislike business and WHY AM I EVEN TAKING BUSINESS?? Thats probably cause the subject is obligatory. Unavoidable. Essential. Tidak boleh dielakkan.

...Its like i'm talking to myself.

And i've finally changed my template! *pops champagne* But this template was easy enough, no need to have to read those bloody codes and having to change xml codes or whatsoever. Cause i got it from blog template itself! That sounded sad.

So its August now eh? Friends on the going with new semesters, some still cramming with assignments and sleepless nights (referring to me, except that i finish my work in school :D) yet some are just staying at home, waking up every now and then and not getting enough sleeps -_- yes and i mean my best friend. Hannah wakes up at the same time as i do in the morning. At least i'm waking up to school and what has she stir around to? Another day of nothingness :P Pity that girl. Perhaps she's just bored.

Ohh and yes :D Remember when Cinderella nearly met her love of her life when she went to the ball? Well too bad when the clock strikes twelve she had to make a run back to her carriage before everything; her dress, carriage, horses all changes back to her normal worn clothes, pumpkins and mice. Well, i can't possibly not to bear in mind that on that very day when i attended to this freaking dinner a month ago which i complained alot about, it turned out all right. Okay fine, more to miraculous. Not the dinner, but AFTER the dinner. Dinner was odd cause ppl were staring, or maybe it was just me. I think Vic still had the grumbles till today since i left the dinner early leaving her alone. Well i'm sure she's happy for me too still :P

Okay point is, something happened that night. Right after the dinner. Eh correction! Halfway through the dinner i went off already. Went off with Jude to Rajah Court and get yakked by this annoying small DARK human (yes im using dark cause i'm being polite here thank you). Okay lets scratch those few parts. *huffhuff* ITWASTHENIGHTWHENJUDEANDIGOTTOGETHER.

That was easy. No big. Sounded wrong though -__-

but yeahhh.. everyone was surprised when they found out about it. And i mean like, EVERYONE. Okay i think i exaggerated that part. MOST ppl lah. Some ppl just don't believe. Is it that hard to believe? -__- I think so. Since i still think its like a castle in the air. But at least he's real :D he's real alright. And awesome and loving and a-thousand-divine-words-to-describe guy. AND HE'S COMING BACK FROM MIRI IN 9 DAYS TIME! *sprinting merrily* I shall wait patiently till that day arrives. Amen. Yes, he's away. Yes, away to study. Yes, for 5 years. Well at least he's still coming back on holidays. No fuss. Distance maybe a barrier but there's always latest technologies still :D nyahaha.

I shall stop posting now and will try to get some siesta :D if not i'll be dead to the world early tonight.

Ps : I still don't get why i'm adding in the cinderella story -_-

Annyeong :D

Less Sugar Overdose Salt

2010-07-20T17:32:00.000-07:00

I should get a life now. Like seriously. I should start arousing over my studies and quit facebooking. Maybe deactivate my profile. Or better, NO ONLINE. I should stop spending money over rainbow socks, McD, nail polishes and chocolates but start digging into dull clothes, nerdy specs (okay maybe even nerdier) and short nerdy hair thats completely squarish yet so straight like edna mode's. No cell phone, no drawings on hands pretending they're tattoos, no craving for mcd. No nothing what i am now.

Or not.

Okay i'll just get to the point of my yarn. Well sorta.

Imagine being in a world full of racism. The country's doing all sorts of whatever stuff trying to make the country a better living place (uh huh) with all the slogans and quotations which i find IS momentous WHICH doesn't actually work for most of the ppl WHICH only helps some ppl WHICH is not even doing any help. So many which.

Okay fine i can deal with racism. And then now i have to tolerate with streamism?!

The word streamism doesn't exist but i can explain what is it. For example, there are science and art streams in a school and most ppl actually think ppl in science stream are smarter ppl and in art stream, less smart ppl. Get it? Well better.

YES SOME PPL DO THINK THAT WAY. Its so sad having ppl to think that way! I mean, whats the point of underestimating ART STREAM?? You get any benefit from it? What, just because ppl from science stream are so the very smart that they know so much about living organisms, interaction of matter and energy source and having to deal with chemistry substances that crap and they'll be the greater generation and making the country a better place? Pfft. They'll move on to overseas and start a new life there. Yeah they're smart. Rote learners i should say, except for some particular subject that they really have interest on then they're exception on that! No one has ever say art stream isn't important, probably just less prominent.

But on the outside world, as in outside of the school -_- its rather more or less the same notable subject matter. If its not for the arts stream, who's gonna deal with principles bout price mechanism? aggregate of past events? surveys on topograhy, climate and soil? and what, a surgeon painting on his patient's stitches? Yeah i think thats cool though. BUT HAS ANYONE DOES THAT? ejfjhweiufwhefiug im pissed at the thought of that.

Im not insulting nor feeling contempt about science stream. Its just, when will ppl stop misjudging art streamers?

To be more exact, i don't give so much crap about this science-ppl-kuasoiing-art-ppl. But i have to admit, even teachers give more priorities on science streamers. I don't mind doing a research on this issue cause i might have plenty of ideas bout it. Okay here goes. Ivolunteeredasaprefect. Not much of a big problem and its not for my own good, well maybe lil bit but i don't wanna let down mum and dad anymore. I disheartened them ever since i was kid, getting lousy grades in school, being lazy and not being a helper at home and all i do is draw. Sketching in anything i can find; papers, tables, books, body parts (except personal parts that is -_-) yet drawing doesn't bring any benefit to them. And i guess being a prefect is another way besides getting great results to enter U. Ohh and er, co-curriculum i guess. My sister was inactive in curriculum all right, but her results are remarkably excellent and she was a school prefect yet a science streamer? Mmhmm explains alot she got an offer from U. Not only one U, few more Us.

How bout me? Maybe more active in curriculum, i even have a role in red crescent! Not so big but still better by bit i guess. Not a prefect and am an art streamer. I just DISLIKE science, i've freakin no awareness bout why balloons float or how big my bronchus is or where lime solution comes from. I just draw. Anything delightful that comes in my mind, i'll just draw. Better than burying my face in 2000 pages of human's body organs. Gross. Not like i like economics or accounting anyway. Sigh.

I guess thats all. I whined enough and am please with it. I pity Vic cause she has to listen to my whining about school being unfair and menotbeingaprefect. Well, she is after all a prefect AGAIN. Yes we both went to volunteered and she got selected and im not-so-surprisingly not selected. Well at least i didn't put much hope in it :D knowing that i'm in art stream :D so i've got less chances :D and science streamers have more opportunities :D

Gah seriously i better get a life.

Hannah went to school today! :D like for few minutes only lol. And mich's coming back this weekend! Heeps XD ohh not to forget stupid oscar night dinner is this friday, i seriously have no attempt on thinking what to wear and all that. Then today i received such news? Yeah i don't think i should be going already.

But i have to.

Till then toodles.

Poppin

2010-07-16T20:01:00.000-07:00

I always thought HyunA is super good in dancing since she can dance so well in HUH video. And Nicole is so cute! I like her latest hair though :D

But this video shows who's the best dancer among the four hottest singer from different bands. Nicole, Gain, HyunA and Minzy!

And yes, im amazed with Minzy I LOVE HER DANCE. It actually has the rhythm and the beat. Dayyuuuuuummm.

Light A Way

2010-07-16T19:09:00.000-07:00

Its friday! One more week to my formal dinner :D Okay so what its my first formal dinner, though im not so thrill bout it but im nervous bout what dress i need to wear on that day. Problem is, the theme's Oscar Night. And well, im sure many ppl would be wearing black. So i thought of a white dress, and Ghali says that i'll look like a llama -__- WHYY! i had no idea why. Hopefully i'll be able to find a white dress asap and that it won't reveal so much of my neckline! Since the condition is like that. Bah.

Well school was okay this week, i managed to survived in my presentation days ago, and there'll be another presentation next week. Gotta try to do it spontaneously this time. Amen.

And guess what! I did something kinda absurd. Well not really but i went to this website which is omegle and you know, just chat with any random strangers. It was fun at first but after awhile it gets boring cause all i met was perverts. If they wanna do orgy cannot go find whores ka? Jeez. Can say there's 70% are pervs while the rest are normal ppl. I met few normal ppl in three days! So see how little normal ppl are there whose involved in this net? Very little. I started getting into this web since wednesday night, and yes, last night i met they guy of my dreams.

NOT!

He's cute alright but nah, i mean he's in NYC, its like the other side of the world! And there's like over billions of human in this world, unless we have fate or sth then we can't possibly avoid that. Fate eh? I doubt i'll be able to chat with him again.

Anyways i came by this! GLUMPERS OMG SO CUTE LAH.

And Cyanide and Happiness! I love this best :D

And i thought cyanide should be the annoying kind, it was sad! Well except the ending lol.

Upcity Fiction

2010-07-12T22:03:00.000-07:00

I is hungry. Hate the fact that i tend to get starving every few hours.

Oh wait. I forgot. I skipped dinner =D

So yeah losing weight once more which is a bad thing! I dont wanna be skinny like my sister XD

Okay i know its been awhile i didnt update. I just dont give a shit anymore.

And life has been, well, BAD.

Not THAT bad but bad enough.

For now that is. No matter who are talking to me, i get annoyed easily.

Menopause?

LOL. Not that bad! I guess just pressure.

HAHAHAHAH. funny how i said it cause its super rare for me to go through stress.

So what bout?

School

It sucks.

Its exhausting.

PEER PRESSURE.

Annoying ppl.

I cant help it but to complain lately. The form6 new system is getting more ridonkulous than ever! 7 hours in school is like hell okay. No one can stand that long no matter how much stamina we've got. No! Scratch stamina. Willingness. Why are they forcing us to stay back in school just to attend meetings? Why cant that simply just be done on freaking saturdays? Jeez. No big deal. We'll follow the bloody rules; no jeans, no cell phones, no shorts/skirts etc etc. As long as no staying backs in school. If form6 is so that tiring, why are they giving more extra classes? That doesnt make any sense. And 70plus ppl playing badminton with only 2 courts provided in school? How AMAZING is that? Why cant simply just let us go WINNER FOR GOD'S SAKE! idhfusdfhsuih

I shall calm down.

Next.

People

Yes, i have issues with certain ppl lately.

THEY CANNOT STOP CALLING ME IS IT.

I mean, ever since last week this young boy kept smiling and doing peace signs at me. And calling my name. Then just today HIS friend calls me GIRL GIRL.

KU SABAR JAK.

And some ppl, pls dont scold or lecture on someone cause you bad mood. Menopause ka? -_-

And yes, i do mean some ppl in school.

OH YES AND CERTAINLY SOME HUMAN IN CHURCH! siudgfhuisfdfsjud I know im paranoid but i know. I just know. Some ppl cannot just stop looking at ppl. Its damn annoying okay. I mean, there's so many better looking ones CANNOT LOOK AT OTHER PPL KA?

I feel like im some perasan shit now lol.

WEATHER

Yeah i bet some ppl will think im too so-no-life complaining and finding fault on my own.

I just want it to rain. Or at least let it be windy or breezy but not HOT SUN UNTIL THE WHOLE SCHOOL FEELS LIKE ITS BURNING RED HOT FIRE ALSO.

Enough said.

I like downtown fiction's songs! XD

Amazing voice =D so far, their album is nice.

Anyway i feel load better. I shall go back to my research hee!

Down

2010-07-01T20:44:00.000-07:00

I kinda forgot what i wanted to update about but anyway i found a nice song! T_T

I didnt actually found it though =P it was Mich who told me about it. I wonder whether she watch Vampire Diaries or not cause thats the song they had in it. Theme song or sth? I dunno.

But the song's really nice! I'll just keep repeating that til im sick of the song ;D but i dont think i will.

Its so soothing. And kinda vampirish lol. Now i feel like watching the series. But i remember my sister telling me that the series wasnt that nice? Ohh well i'll check em out myself =D who knows turn out i'll like it. And im still longing to watch Pretty Little Liars! But youtube dont have certain parts of the episodes. Diao. Annoying bah.

Ohh did i mention i learned a new word? =D not that i've just found out bout it but i never bother about it. That is DIAO.

Ohh ohh! Solar is out! I wanted to download it this morning at 12am but i was too pooped to wanna do anything. Oh well anyway thats it. Idle it is ;D

You're My Chocolate Icecream

2010-06-30T00:17:00.000-07:00

OMG GUESS WHAT.

WAIT YOU HAVE NO IDEA XD

... EXACTLY WHAT I EXPECTED.

Anyway Taeyang's audio previewsare AWESOME.

I srsly want his album -CRIES-

But its okay, as long as i download his songs then its fine :) I couldnt help it but even download the previews of his songs LOL. Melampau addicted. Who ask his voice so nice lah.

His album is coming out tomorrow! -dances-

Ohh and,

Happy Birthday to Mr korean bieber!

though i knew he wont be reading this lol.

Hopefully Sunny's dreams will be fulfilled :D

Son Shines

2010-06-26T03:15:00.000-07:00

fhsoufgdbveoifbeofbri I WANT A KID LIKE HARANG.

Lol. So cute bah! Not that i wanna get married or get pregnant before marriage -_- Maybe i can get myself inseminated or adopt one XD but this kid so adorable i feel so annoyed in a way that i wanna pinch the kid's cheek and hug him so tight until i need to gasp for air. Should be the other way round though.

If i have a lil brother i might make him cut that hairstyle XD Pity my bro lol. I dont want my elder bro -IF i have one- to have that hair cause he just wont go with any hair. That is IF i have a brother. Why? Because i've already seen the male version of me. And i looked like some pervert -_- You know those kinda pictures where your face matches in other ppl's face?? Gah forget it. I have terrible ways to explain words. Anyway i looked perverted THATS CAUSE ITS AN OLD MAN PIC. If it was some hot korean maybe i'll look okay XD

See see! I can faint cause of a young boy. Plus the hot guy with gorgeous eyes and smile thats carrying Harang too ;D

I feel like kids are way more lucky than i am T_T

Thats one of the reasons why i think being a kid is way more easier. Wait scratch that. ... an ANGMOH kid. One, you dont have to worry what clothes to wear for today and tomorrow and the the day after. Two, you get asked for hugs from random hot korean guys not vice versa T_T and probably you wont even act like such an idiot in front of em cause still young and you dunno anything. Probably thinking,"This guy have breath problems." Not that Taeyang have lah. I think. Horror.

Grr.

Do i need to get a husband like Taeyang to get a son like Harang? XD

Okay now i sound like some despo who needs to get married asap -_- Puhlease. I shall adore Bigbang for the rest of my life. Amen.

Now it sounded like some vow i have to stick to forever. Tsk.

Anyway finally done with my PA essay! I think i screw it up? Ohh wells not my fault. I still have two Bm essays to do! And its due on monday! $(%&)@! 650 to 700 words per essay. So i need to write like 1400 cb words ugh FML.

I shall continue my essays and fangirl-ing later AFTER i get my beauty sleep.

Hopefully.

Nights :)

Banana Yours

2010-06-26T01:34:00.000-07:00

Dear Hannah,

Yer so cheesy XD You left today -sounded like you really 'left' =_=- but NO THATS NOT WHAT I MEAN. You left to Shah Alam and away from us, your best buddies and family in Kuching, hopefully you manage to live a good life there even though the college is super strict. It was hard to wanna leave the airport and i really dislike airport already -_- just be careful out there :D Its like what you've always wanted to also, leaving kuching that is HAHAHA. but still its your home and all that bla3. Okay this is getting boring.

Anyway! I know you havent listen to Suju's new album yet, and this is one of em. You'll like it XD since i like it too hee. WELL YOU BETTER.

Well, i dedicate this to you ;D though its not originally composed by me lah -_-

See even the player color also your favorite color sheeeeesh.

Okay i'll keep this for short. My essay needed to be done like ASAP.

Take care miss yah~

Love,

Isabel

Solar

2010-06-25T01:38:00.000-07:00

I am THRILLED! I THINK I'LL FAINT EVEN BEFORE I CAN EXPLAIN WHY I AM.

Solar is gonna be out in 5 days time! *dances dynamically* Hopefully i would be able to download the album once its out =D *plays fireworks* So far i had only listen to solar intro and its already making me so excited like mad. WHY TAEYANG SO AWESOME LAH. Dear God i thank you for such wonderful human. Amen.

Ppl might smash me with baseball bat cause im so nothing but a noisy fan girl lol. Hah pardon me, im like that when it comes to Bigbang with awesome music and anything thats got to do with em. Lala lala~

Even allkpop has Taeyang as their wallpaper! *pulls hair robustly* Im overreacting i know. Who cares im still a fan :P

See see! His solar album back cover *drools*

I WANT.

But its gonna take forever for the album to reach Malaysia what more to say Kuching.

And can see number 3?! FEATURING JIYONG OI. *melts*

Some more Dara will appear in that mv! njufgsudhfoshodjioasj fast. come. out.

And listen listen!

A minute and three sec of soothing melody, wuuh. I hearts. I replayed the song heaps of times already, probably until the day the full album comes out. Heeheeeee.

Hopefully i'll still be alive when the album comes out. Oho.

I shall sleep early today! Cause i'll need to wake up early and send Hannah Banana off at the airport :(

Til then muchachazzz or muchachozzz.

Too Much

2010-06-24T20:08:00.000-07:00

IM ANNOYEDDDDD!!

Annoyed in a funny way that is.

Parody.

Its suppose to be super hilarious right? That makes you laugh until you cannot laugh anymore.

But the parodies i just watched annoyed me so much until the max!

UNTIL I HAVE TO COMPLAIN BOUT IT OSO -__-

Okay lah it does make me laugh. But it made me laugh cause i was annoyed. Well whatever that means.

Wanna know what im super annoyed with?

HERE.

My eyes. I wanna cry but cannot. Close also cannot. Cause i'll recall the video again.

And the ppl? Its like cina beng version of bigbang.

And since when Seungri and Taeyang looked so pelik! O.o HAHAHA!

Enough said :D

Medleys

2010-06-24T19:47:00.000-07:00

I knew one of these medleys for awhile but now then i thought of posting it :D

I love the miley cyrus one better! Though i didnt like the singer but Christina Grimmie made it so much better. And the Taylor Swift one was not bad lol. I mean, it does take hell lotsa time for them to do all that right? Ohh well. Awesome still ;D

I was hoping she would sing the whole song for when i look at you though cause her voice is nicesshhhh. Miley cyrus's not bad lahh.. i like her mv.

Tiffany Alvord's pretty! and i dunno why i dont like Taylor Swift anymore -_- annoys me lol.

Anyway this two have their own duos! Not bad ehhh. Okay lazy update already.

Was supposed to have farewell dinner for Hannah but it was cancelled. Ngaaaa.

Kbye.

Don't Cry Sky

2010-06-24T17:21:00.000-07:00

I was overjoyed its raining. Like FINALLY! :)

But then i dropped by -more to purposely though- someone's profile in fb and somehow I DUNNO WHY i think got sand went in my eyes though, my eyes somehow ALMOST became watery and i seriously almost cried. LOL. Its like the whole world is under grieving cause she left Kuching and to a new environment, even someone passed away today! Gosh. A friend's friend's dad. I mean of course there is somebody who dies today lah but i didnt expect it to be someone whom i maybe know.

So is this how its gonna be like?? When everyone whose close to you leaves? I doubt it. Probably got some carnival coming up that time -_- Somehow i dont wanna grow up anymore. I mean i'd rather still be a kid and not be so worry bout so many matters and then the only thing i'd have to worry about is who's gonna play barbie dolls with me. But that seldom happens to me when i was a kid; that is worrying no one will play with me since i have my sister with me.

And now im sweet 18, need to worry about this and that, its plainly just SO annoying! I woke up at 3pm not long ago and already planned to do my PA essay. But then i went online cause i wanted to search for a condolence message -_- and from there my fingers automatically signed in fb so this was how the flow went. Ohh i think i almost shed tears cause of the song that was playing that time too. Little wonders by Rob Thomas. Duh bah. Its from Meet The Robinsons, and that song was playing when its near to the ending of the movie. I like the movie :D

So yeah. If only random things would happen and at least it'll make ppl feel happy right? I mean when you least expect things to happen, that usually brighten things up. If only random things occur everyday :D

But most of the time ppl tend to wait for things to happen, and when it didnt happen, it makes ppl sad. Worse part of all, they'll lose hope and faith.

Losing hope is okay. At least some ppl are bold and positive enough to get over it and face a new life. Turn into a new leaf :) because im sure life ain't that bad. We're God's children after all. Cause each and everyone of us will be able to see a whole load of beautiful things far ahead.

Its only gonna take a matter of time and sweats to get their reward. Im sure everyone wants the same reward. Happiness. Well some ppl would think money is it, but money also happiness what right? Except that kinda reward is the shorter version of happiness. Lol. So whats wrong if you're lonely and no one is replying you?

And that your parents always scold you for not listening to them?

And ugly ppl tend to annoy you?

Who cares lah! Why give so much crap about it? Just live with it and make things more fun from it. There're reasons for everything that happens every time.

And it all depends on you.

Yes you.

Just always remember God is always there for you. Anywhere anytime with anyone. He's everywhere! You dont have to give a phone call already He's there. Talking to yourself can be considered talking to Him also bah. Right? Lol.

So whatever, just be who you are. Ahlian, beng, chao ahgua, ugly, sexy, huge nose.. . . you still rock! Just dont be too annoying -_- Got limit.

An awesome song to end this post! ;D

Y Lolliphone

2010-06-24T04:14:00.000-07:00

Dont be annoyed of my frequent updates! XD Its very rare for me to update so i'll just update straight about anything i found. I just need to. My blog, tumblr and twitter is like my memo pad.

Anyway i like this mash up! Though cant be compared to the 30 kpop mashup songs but this is also not bad :D

And i dont understand this human who commented on the video and said lady gaga sucks but still love this song -_-

If she doesnt like Lady Gaga why does she have to like the song? -_- xphm ku. Simply cause bigbang's in it ka? annoying bah.

I have finally watched this video at last! *applause* I feel outdated again -_-

Lee Joon acted better as a ninja assassin than a wannabe james bond though lol. But still! Hes is hots. Oh yeah.

GO finally got rid of his moustache and beard! XD He dont look so good in the mv here but he does over here! No, not a video this time.

Ngeeeee. He looked young bah lol. And much more better :D

Okay sleep :D

Disposable

2010-06-24T03:19:00.000-07:00

Im really extremely tremendously wholly downright ANNOYED with ppl who despised celebs when they dont even know them that well. Not saying that i know the celebs that well too.

But if they wanna bullshit bout em, keep it to yourself. Or share among your friends.

Dont go watch their videos AND THEN comment, saying all those bullcraps which makes it sounded like they're just jealous of the celeb.

One reason ppl became famous;

CAUSE THEY HAVE TALENT AND YOU DONT SO SHUT UP.

Well of course they have talent themselves too but they're just not so lucky compared to others. And not so appealing enough.

So what if GD sucks in beatboxing and that TOP is way better than him in it?

HE CAN SING BAH.

His face also wanna complain, say what plastic faced lah.

And SO WHAT if Justin Bieber is a kid. HE CAN SING. And its not like he'll stuck 13 forever.

Is he 13? Ah who cares. He'll grow up bah.

And why have to care if Miley Cyrus is ugly?

If she's THAT ugly she can be famous ka? She's got the VOICE also bah! -not that i like her singing lah but still her videos are usually nice, except for cant be tamed-

Who cares if Taylor Swift is lousy at singing live? Heechul being so chao ahgua? Kristen Stewart sucks being as Bella? Well i dislike robert pattinson ever since he acted as Edward.

LET THEM BE LAH. Taylor Swift doesnt sound that bad in live, i've listened to em before. Not THAT bad bah. And heechul is pretty, admit it. Kristen maybe horrible as Bella but she's good in Zathura. I dont even know its here until now -_-

But whatever lah.

I might kena loathed for complaining.

But ehh.. TOP can really beatbox =D

HOMG

2010-06-24T02:43:00.000-07:00

I found something new again!

this time no koreans.

But a UK guy. In fact he's hot. And have nice hair XD

I like his videos cause they make sense.

The banana part was annoying -_- but no, not THAT seductive lol.

The guy with blue eyes? Thats Phil, well obviously. They both have nice hair! Gosh.

Anyway thats it. Gosh i wonder how many videos i've been watching already.

Justina & BB

2010-06-24T01:18:00.000-07:00

Ohh look!

Jude told me about Justin Bieber's somebody to love. Whoa not baaaadd.

I've always like his songs anyway but i simply just dont get why ppl despise him.

I mean, he's a kid after all and yet ppl still fucked so much about him that he's a kid lah, voice like a girl's, why can he be famous, he's ugly this and that crap.

Not that i adore him myself also but just.

Get a life. He just happened to be in youtube, and really, i've watched the videos before he was famous, he CAN sing.

And youtube is meant for anyone to post whatever videos they got, well guess he's just really lucky then. That he was found and then famous all of a sudden.

And he's grown up already! Especially in this music video O.o

Well i kinda think Bieber's bit gayish in the mv -_- but overall not bad. Tambah Usher some more. Wow.

There's this group in the mv, kinda remind me of Jabbawockeez lol.

And i really like them! :D

Ohh and i found this as well! OMGGGGG GAHO SO CUTE. I want a sharpei too!

The owner also cute lah XD JIYONG! *melts*

omggggg im lmao here! Watch the mini drama! I couldnt watch the actual drama of it cause both parts doesnt have english subs :( -obviously im updating my blog halfway then watch the drama lol-

I can watch that many times and not get bored of it HOMG!

And Taeyang really reminded me of Ho in the audition scene O.o i wonder how Boss can stand with TOP also HAHAHA!

Seungri's good as a girl loool! Heechul can compete with him ah. Then i wonder why GD always have to be the one who likes a girl then cannot be with the girl lol so pity. Okay im talking to myself here.

And then there's their behind the scenes! XD

FUNNY.

I wonder how they acted! gosh.

Anyway gonna continue watching their parodies and laugh til i drop.

Til then!

CowsNotBlue

2010-06-23T23:47:00.000-07:00

Love love love! Im so addicted to CNBlue these days. Ever since i watched music bank and they were singing Love. And the way how shinwoo looks at the camera is so mesmerizing! Shinwoo oppa *faints*

okay now i sound like some noisy fangirl.

So school finally started this week. After 3 weeks of nothing but boring holidays and laziness, i went to class yesterday and the day before. Today? No. Why? Cause today and tomorrow are sports day. How bout friday? Holiday. *smile mischievously* I dunno why holiday also but who cares! Its a HOLEDEHH. I was sick on monday so its amazing somehow i still managed to survived. And next week til dunno when, classes will end at 3pm! T__T its a malaysian yet government school for heaven's sake! Why have to study til 3pm. Even teachers cant stand the long hours what more to say the students. FORM6 some more? Enough stress already and they're adding more salt into it. Fuck much.

And everyone's leaving already! Mich had already left to Labuan.

Then this friday Hannah will be leaving to Shah Alam.

Jude will be leaving to Miri by July.

Elizabeth, my classmate who sits beside me in class! is gonna leave too.

Vera leaving to Ipoh soon.

Probably in few years time Belle and Yo will be leaving too. To continue their degree that is.

Vic remained in form6 with me :D haha at least she's still around in kuching. So is MJ!

Sigh.

Anyway i've just found out about this!

O o o o o o o ommmaaahgad. The song is already so addictive. And after watching the mv its becoming a drug! Hayley Williams so pretty! Im loving the way how the video is. Loves.

And this?!

Park Bom so PRETTEH! And whats going on with her between and GD? O.o

Anyway there's so many movies i wanna watch! Too many to list em down though but i really wanna watch Karate Kid and The last airbender! Not to forget eclipse?! And my all time fav, Step Up! comes in 3D wuuh! BUT 3D like not much effect, like for example, toy story 3! The movie's aweeeesommeeee. but 3D really nothin much pssh.

Oo i wanna watch this! Man another dance movie?! loooooves.

Okay my butt's numb already.

A sign to stop blogging =DD

buhbye.

Gummyyyy

2010-06-16T03:38:00.000-07:00

Hi. :) Its 3 plus am for heaven's sake.

And i've just watched 500 days of summer.

Its awesome :)

And im daring myself to sleep at 6am XD

And make someone jealous of my courage ohoho.

Anyway thanks to Hannah im lovin this song.

Understand the lyrics! They're cool.
Kinda affect some certain ppl.
And im lovin this song and the mv! x)

The guy in it is one of my darlings! XD
Kim Hyun Joong that is, the one that acted in bof?

yup thats him.

Anyway thats about it.

I still have 2 hours plus more to bed and im already tired shit.

Im kiasu, face it :D

buuuut at least i found new songs :D applause ppl applause.

Im lovin CNBLUE! Especially the main vocalist of the band.

The guy that acted in Youre Beautiful, shit forgot his name.

But he's one of my bfs too XD

Yeah screw the part he is my bf actually cause i dont even know his name!

Sadness overwhelms.

Well too much bfs that is, at least i rmbr his face. Nyahaa.

Maybe i can just doze off on the couch awhile.

Or not.

K thats it. Cya.

Happily Ever After

2010-06-10T22:49:00.000-07:00

Expected. Things are going the way i knew.

But i didnt expect for it to happen this fast.

Sick of everything thats happening.

Ppl forgetting the old ones.

Leaving behind something for a new one;

thinking they know whats best for them.

(not that i know)

Not appreciating things infront of em until they regret it.

Doing sth for lust.

Not knowing whats important to em;

but bother on other things which arent right.

But they just dont know.

I wish i can just runaway from home and the next thing i knew was that,

everything goes back to normal;

like the way how its suppose to be.

I thought dramas and movies are just shows that ppl directed for fun,

thats based on their creative thinking.

It is.

But i missed sth.

Its also based on real lives; on whats happening out there.

Husbands cheating on wives, i wonder why. Are they possibly tired of their wives already?

Might as well no need to get married in the 1st place and wasted their children's time.

Some ppl got caught cheating and still they were given another chance.

And ppl who are bastards but dont even know it; still going around like some hypocritical shit.

Ppl who commit suicides due to love, family, work matter while disabilities trying to live good lives.

So it is told that the world is unfair.

Ppl are just dumb to deal with things.

Confident yes, but nonetheless not thinking outside the box.

No matter how positive a person is, they'll still collapse down one day.

As the saying goes, no one is perfect.

Indeed. No one is perfect but You.

And so i thought everyone has a happy ending in their lives.

I believe so..

In fairy tales.

Can life be a happy ending and closes its book?

Is there even a book in our lives?

Can i get a happily ever after in my life?

Unless my destiny is written that way, then it is.

But pfft.

Dream on.

Anyway check out these videos :D

This band rocks!

Thanks to hannah~ yadayada XD

8th June

2010-06-08T15:49:00.000-07:00

Hi XD

Obviously im bored and its been *counting fingers* 5days mum and lil sis has been away on a trip to Brunei but probably they're in Bintulu now or somewhere?

Anyway, days without nagging and shouting, noises of hokkien shows, complains bout food and all that was GREAT :)

im mean right. I guess its like that when mum's not around.

It feels peaceful and quiet.

But its troublesome and more burden for dad. Cause he needs to work and now he has to worry about our daily meals and push us on doing laundry and stuff.

When neither me or my sister does it, he'll have to be the one who does it.

So mum or no mum at home?

There's a super major difference in it. And more burden to come.

And yesterday was Mich's birthday! Its so sad for her since she's in Labuan and all then she couldnt celebrate it here. Hopefully she's alright.

Hannah stayed over for a night which was yesterday night, and it was.. . . i've no idea how to explain bout it. But the night before yesterday when she reached my place, we were dying of boredom BECAUSE THE INTERNET LINE IS DEAD. Seriously. Its not even working! The both of us were mourning there and here and kinda curse Jude cause his internet was going great XD

So we crapped in my room about *whispers* NYAHAHA! It took awhile until when we checked the line again and it REVIVED! *bows* While onlining we called Mich :) I've no idea how long we talked on the phone but im glad we did called her :) And then we even sent her a bubble talk! But she said it was lame -__- so much for planning stressfully over what to say on it. At least she uses her present that hannah and i got her!

We onlined til 4am and went to bed. Then started talking bout *WHISPERS* arhahahahharrrr i know im mean. So what? The TOPIC was funny and thats what girls do. Very no life lah talking bout sth or someone who annoys you in your life but at least you know the real things bout em and to know what to do and not do already. Erm im starting to get out from the topic. Anyway, we slept at 5am!

Oh oh! Did i mention i got my haircut?? XD

I wanted to cut like hayley's but. . . failed. Hayley's was short bah and mine is still off the shoulder length. Ohh well, next time :D and im loving the new salon i went! I just found out the owner was my cousin -_-

So yeahhhh... now im officially stuck at home til i dunno when. I feel so bored i could almost faint. Since i've always wanted to faint anyway cause dunno how does it feels like. And and! i like my fringe? Lol. it is thick xD

So........... Happy Birthday to my annoying yet funny best friend Mich!

Cute right? XD

Officially 18!

Hope you survived through matrix and best of luck there :DD

Yeah and 48 more days to go til July!

Anyway lazy mode attacked!

Til then.

Smiling

2010-06-03T23:21:00.000-07:00

Omg! I is undergoing emoness right now cause am currently listening to this song over and over again.

So i is sad :(

No matter how many times the song plays i would never get sick of it.

So can guess how emo i am?

Not that kinda emo like sit in a corner with a knife on my wrist kinda emo!

But emo as in thinking bout all those stuff emo you know? :(

No not suicide stuff!

That stuff lah hish.

No not THAT stuff.

Tsk you get what i mean -__- its like im arguing with myself anyway wtf.

Heard bout Cinderella's Sister? Its a korean drama i bumped into while switchin channels. And acted by Mun GeunYoung and Taecyeon! PLus Seowoo and some hot guy whose name i forgot :D

The song i was saying?

Yup that song. So the very sad :( It has to be you by Yesung from Suju! I didnt know Yesung's voice so awesome. Why didnt he sing earlier on anyway. Ohh wait there is, resignation. He sang it in Super Junior Show but no, i didnt listen to it :P Its in my folder though! Ahaha..

I've no idea how many times the song is playin already gosh.. emo emo!

K anyways night bye :D

Junehhh

2010-06-01T21:50:00.000-07:00

Wow. When was the last time i updated my blog again? I seriously cant recall ohh no im old :(

And duh, its already June! Many things coming up and im really far behind to wanna update with everything that had happened and is happening lately. Im having 3 weeks of holiday! Gosh and how is it possible for me to wanna study during the holidays?? Many things has come up and im still living through the life. Tough one but yeah.

So whats up eh? Well ever since form6 started i hadnt been feeling any better bout whats going on; the school, the teachers, the subjects im taking, even MONEY i have to worry about because mum is not giving me allowance -_- i know, small thing but my bank is draining out, and then family, now friends?

Mich came back recently from camp cause she's got an offer to matrix in Labuan and had to leave camp. She boarded the plane this morning and obviously is already there. When she came back from camp, all i hear from her was camp this camp that. Cause she simply just miss camp. Now you know how i feel Mich? XD Point is, when she was complaining all this while i couldnt help it but suddenly missing my camp too. Friends, the food, the time schedule, sports and everything. Its like back-to-emo session again. Worse part of all is that Mich's leaving to labuan for a year and how far can that be from kuching?? Hmm aint that far but far enough cause we cant possibly use vehicle from here to there. Well unless your car can swim underwater or fly lah.

She asked me to follow her out on friday to buy her stuff for labuan. And i couldnt cause i had other plans. Well i was kinda regret with that decision. Aaaaaanyway was out with her on saturday! I was afraid at 1st i would get conjunctivitis cause she was having em but since she was leaving so soon, im taking the risk XD I mean, you wont die if you get those right? But her eyes wasnt so red when i met her. We went to Spring, DUH cause its the only mall we can go to ever since it was built. Then we celebrated her birthday at night at her house. More to celebrating her birthday earlier. Hannah and i was mad all over a cute guy XD who was Mich's brother's friend. Who was only 13 years old. I know right. TSK not a pedophile. But Hannah was even more mad ohoho. Sunday, we went to camp and got emo-ed all over, getting flashbacks bout those times when Abi and i emo together by the pond, Vera Jac Adi and i running under the heavy rain, lying on the road watching the stars at night, marching together so seriously for the competition, Eve Abi and i praising to God together XD aah those moments *sobs*

Aaaanywaaaays, I sleptover at Mich's that night, thought we could watch movie til morning but turned out that i slept first =_= Tsk.

I woke up this morning feeling so shitty cause i was going through the ohhimisscamp! feeling AGAIN. I TOTALLY dont like that feeling, but it wasnt so bad sigh.

Somehow my sentence is getting off the topic. Actually i dunno what im saying also.

So yeaaaaaahh.. i cant randomly go hangout at her place anymore. And call her anymore. And bitching bout ppl with OHOHO. Wait there's always Hannah XD but like she said, she's staying at the other side of the world from my house and currently she's having conjunctivitis -_- got em from mich. I spent more time with mich but i didnt get em. Wuuh im strong! *shows eye muscles* But Hannah's leaving me too. WHY IS EVERYONE LEAVING LAH? sigh. And most probably Jude is leaving too *hits Jude look alike toy* Adi already left to Johore :( a month ago! is it? -_- see see! why am i not leaving here instead tsk

But instead its like im staying here forever and rot. Bah.

Is that how June is suppose to be? The "leaving" season.

Oh ohh! Did i mention i passed my law test? XD yeah i know im so outdated and kinda old to take em but i was the youngest to take the test that day when i went to the place, everyone there was older than me O.o

OH IM CRAVING FOR BROWNIE FROM BING. GRR.

Cabi

2010-05-20T17:40:00.000-07:00

OMG ITS OUT!

I think im very outdated again though -__- but who cares im one of the 300plus viewed ppl in youtube! :PPPP

Yoona so hot! So is Yuri and Seohyun! I dont really know any 2pm guys but they are seriously SMEXY! *melts* And they're all so cute in inside! I SCREAM. If they actually have a drama for this i'd watch for sure! I dont care even if form6 are one of the barriers.

And guess what! I finally watched Coraline! Ever since last year i tried downloading it but failed? And now finally watched it?!

. . . Seriously outdated -.-

And also How To Train A Dragon! I LOVE TOOTHLESS! I want a dragon for my christmas this year :D a cute one.

and and! Erm thats all. I mean i only managed to watched two movies. My sister downloaded hell lotsa movies. And her i dunno whats that call she install her stuff in? Has 200gb. I faint.

Okay. Next movie :D

Just hope i can study tonight.

Strawberry Days

2010-05-18T22:05:00.000-07:00

Omg suddenly i miss camp. Browsed through the files in my documents then i came by the NS files. Old memories seriously made me feel like turning back time and making things better back then. But then i thought, its better already so why not make the future a better one right? Somehow i thank God for the camp experience. No, i dont thank the government for it cause they force ppl to go. But ohh well.

YES GUESS WHAT.

I finally moved back to my economy class. GREAT.

I feel comfortable enough in my class compared to visual arts.

Hannah told me they're gonna start drawing tomorrow. . That kinda hit me in the face cause i really wanna draw sigh.

But ohh well i'll just stick to econ for now.

Wait. Until i finish form6 and uni.

That is if i get accepted to uni.

I find MUET is difficult if we're not good in speaking! T___T

and this morning was my first lesson of MUET and i already had to give a speech in front of the class. Each of us had to picked a paper and given 2 minutes to think what/how to perform and i screwed mine up. I was sure i had points in my head but i guess i just didnt elaborate much enough. Its only the beginning. Imagine the real exam. I SWEAR im gonna get nervous breakdown infront of the examiners and some more i tend to forget things i memorised the day before! X_x dead much?

AND IM ANNOYED WITH MY PA TEACHER. Not only she's my pa teacher she's my class teacher as well gosh. So i need to be patient throughout the whole lower form6, and just hope she wont be my class teacher for the next year. Its like she have grudge against me cause i never concentrate in her history lessons for the last two years :D Bah. Im gonna show her i can survive and get good result for that bloody subject she's teaching.

And economy was well er.. not bad? i managed to get in infos in my head even though i skipped the 1st lesson which was the day before. Im gonna need to try harder sigh. Mum was effing happy i moved back to econ. Whats so great bout it pfft.

And i hate my skirt cause it looked like curtain after extension. I KNOW. EXTENSION ON A SKIRT SOUNDED HIDEOUS. What more to say to SEE it.

Ohh! Check out Big Bang's latest song, Tell Me Goodbye!

Im sleepy already.

:)

Pinkies

2010-05-17T21:46:00.000-07:00

IM ANNOYED! HAHAHAHAHAH!!

SpongeBob SquarePants: What is air?
Patrick: Huh?
SpongeBob SquarePants: I just met this girl. She wears a hat full of... air.
Patrick: Do you mean she puts on airs?
SpongeBob SquarePants: I guess so.
Patrick: That's just fancy talk. If you wanna be fancy, hold your pinky up, like this. The higher you hold it, the fancier you are.
SpongeBob SquarePants: [Holds up pinky] How's this?
Patrick: Higher.
SpongeBob SquarePants: [holds his pinky up higher] Like this?
Patrick: Now that's fancy! They should call you SpongeBob FancyPants.

I just love spongebob and patrick :)

DAP or Picasso?

2010-05-17T20:44:00.000-07:00

Im so lost.

I mean i was so eager about changing classes from economy to visual arts? And then when i moved there already im having second thoughts about it. Am i regretting?? GOSH. Its like that feeling you get when you're given a choice to move to Korea or get married to the cutest korean celeb ever and then you could only pick one and since you picked to marry and then you have second thoughts about choosing the first option cause you can have any cute guys there by then instead of just the cutest guy. SIGHS. there's so many 'ands'.

Okay maybe my example is a bit way off -_-

Anyway so yeah. Im having mix feelings about thinking whether to take economics again or not. Mum says i should take it. But she said that cause my aunts say so. Yesterday my aunts came over and said i should take it cause its good. Then my aunt Elisabeth says its good too; told her i know nothing about it and she said it takes time to understand the subject. My sister says its good -.- dad and hannah says up to me. Its like majority thinks visual arts doesnt have future which is not true. I mean if they think that way, what the heck are they wearing lah? Its fashion DESIGN. And the beautiful huge houses they're living in and also europe furniture blabla shit? Interior DESIGN and architecture. Those adverts and banners everywhere? Thats graphic DESIGN. How bout animations that their kids like to watch? 3D animation DESIGN. How can ppl possibly think arts doesnt give any future to ppl? Gosh. If not why Leonardo da Vinci can make history till today after so many years. I dont get why ppl ask to take economics just cause its good. So what if its good. Its not good for me.

Right?

Its like i wanna move back to economics but im on arts' side -___-

And now mum expects me to study already even on the first day of class. Pfft. She should have known me better. Told her im not like my elder sister; stay in room and studying all the time and never coming out except when needed to go to the loo or drink or to school. I only stay in my room to sleep and change aaaand what ah? Do manicure. Lol.

Okay going off the title. And i pity my new friend in economics class! She looked so sad when i walked passed the class LOL. Or maybe its just my eyes. Ohh well.

Lazy mode back!

Crisps So Sour

2010-05-15T22:23:00.000-07:00

Hi. Im alive :)

Yes. After first week of torture in school, i still managed to sit here infront of laptop and online. Actually im still in a lazy mode to wanna do anything besides just lazying my ass of at home.

So what about form6? Hmm it sucks :)

And erm. Gonna suck even more for the coming week :D

Like i said, i was placed in economy class -like so wtf right?- and i asked for transfer class to visual arts and im gonna move on monday! Muahaha yes the teacher allowed. And im a lil annoyed at one thing.

Okay here's how it is.

It was on thursday night when i kept get this weird feeling all over. So called the im having butterflies in my stomach sorta thing. And i was complaining to Jude all the time and he just dont get the idiom. I was scared something's gonna happen on the next day in school since we're moving to our classes soon after 3 days of bloody orientation in the hall.

So yeah i went to my class the 1st thing when i reached school. Form6 was in block C and i saw Hannah when i walked passed LSA1 which was her class. My class was only next door which is LSA2 and it was empty and lack of chairs. So poor to get chairs for the students but rich to extend the spaces in front of the staff room. YES I MEAN YOU, YOU BATU LINTANG SCHOOL. Ugh. Even if they have enough chairs i still dislike BL.

Then when it was time for the first lesson to start, this guy came in. And not only THIS guy, he was the guy that i first noticed when we registered, and yeah i thought he was cute. Muahaha.

Yeah he was not bad looking actually but after awhile i dont find him cute anymore -___- Sorry i know im evil sigh. Not that im interested in him or anything also so im not wrong.. right?

Er anyway yeah that was what im annoyed at. I also dunno why.

And i met a new friend and she was cute! Omg. She said she like my eyes! HAHAHAHAHA first day of class already get compliment. She also said i dont look chinese. GASP. That one really first time ppl said that about me. Not chinese?! Good :D not pure what. WAHAHA.

Aaaaaanyway i was suppose to go out for movie but cancelled. Cause. . . some stuff.

And im sick of home. But after the 2nd week of school they'll be 3 weeks of holiday! WEE! Might as well no need go school.

Okay thats about it. Ohh! DID I MENTION MY HAIR IS PURE BLACK NOW? Like really extremely totally effing BLACK? sigh. I dislike it for being this black. Only under the sun can see lil bit of brownish. It wasnt suppose to be this black what. It was naturally brownish k. Except that it was highlighted brownish more before.

I Pissed Lah

2010-05-10T19:21:00.000-07:00

Oi. Here i am. Sorry if i didnt update my blog. Gawd im just too lazy! I only update my twitter since its short and i can crap all bout there. My tumblr? Oh its that dead too =_=

So guess what? I've finally got my uniforms. And yeah, i've already registered for form6 this morning. Tomorrow am going to school again for i dunno what also. I just feel sick going to school. I mean, imagine it. I was all so omgimleavingschoolforgood mood when i finished spm last year, then the next thing i know is that im back in high school. Except that im gonna only waste my one and a half years in BL once more. But still, i'd waste my time doing something i wanna do. NOT STUDYING OVER SUBJECTS IM FORCED TO JUST SO I CAN GET IN UNI. sigh. pathetic life? Yes it is. Just gotta take it with a kena-forced open heart and do it. I mean yeah take stpm and try pass em. I just wanna pass em so any bloody uni can accept me for good, AND if they offer me courses i always wanted, that'd be better :D If not, i'll suffer like my sister lah, taking something which i've no interest to like wtf.

But yeah.. its just the beginning of form6, ugh just gotta take it seriously this time too since its form6 hello? My future will die if i fail. Gonna fuckin struggle for somethin i hate alot. WHY! So people out there, studying in colleges and taking up some effing courses you like, at least study well cause its YOUR parents who paid for it and do you have any idea how much they spent for you to study then ended up you go college to play and meet cute/hot ppl just to hiao em around like that? Fun lah but no fun if you keep failing in subjects even when you have pretty faces. Ended up your life also fucked up. All thanks to YOU cause your parents already did what they can.

I know sure some ppl terasa and ppl probably hated me for saying that cause ive no rights. But this is my blog, you yourself come read it. All i wanted to say is appreciate what you have. Even how much you dislike what your parents is doing to you, example me (taking something i dislike alot) just think it the positive way. Maybe sooner or later something good will turn out okay right?

Ps : I know mine wont i just keep on living this life. Like what the heck, you've only got one life. Take it and live it.

Im done.

No Ignorance

2010-05-07T02:45:00.000-07:00

See! I just noticed this XD

Hayley Williams!! XD Its my theme for twitter :P Cantik lah! I love T___T It stands out the most in my google chrome. Okay enough loso. And the red arrow pointed at something? Yup it was the website to . . . shh. Not telling :P muahahaha. Sorry im very stingy sometimes XD Ask me personally lah if wanna know ohoho.

Yeah can see obviously that i sign in fb alot. Though its like super boring but i still always hang around there. Sorry blog was dead. Cant help it sigh.

And thanks to Ho i kept thinking bout pedophiles trying to get me =.= Ugh! Not that i wanna think of em or anything. Maybe im just paranoid.

Okay my back is aching shit. Nights.

Boo

2010-05-05T02:47:00.000-07:00

Hello. This is me thumblr XD

http://irantcraps.tumblr.com/

Why i have cause i like the theme.

Emergency

2010-05-05T01:50:00.000-07:00

Im confused.

No, not bout my gender -___-

Just confused.

Any antidote?

Soju nor Flip Flops?

2010-05-04T01:43:00.000-07:00

Its official! I turned 18 already! :DDD No not today but yesterday XD

I think i should start with my birthday eve :O It was a blast! It was damn, just mad. It was on May 2nd, Chris made a plan to have dinner at Koreana. He asked many people to go but ended up only Belle, Sunny and i showed up. Yo and Caleb went there first but they changed their mind and left the place after that =_= Hannah's grounded, so yeah. WHY! And Mich, MJ and Vic already went back to camp so there was only four of us who could went. One thing that bothers me was Belle, Sunny and Chris drove there. And i, well, i havent got driving license yet so Chris hadda picked me up which was sad cause i couldnt drive yet! Jeez. But anyway, Koreana is NICE. The food there are seriously koreanish XD and just plain delicious. I finally tasted kimchi and the kimchi soup. Bam, that was nice. I think everything cost 100bucks? O.o The only thing that wasnt koreanish there was the atmosphere cause they were playing english songs and the workers there are NOT asians. Not to say im racist or anything lah but i expected chinese or better, korean :D

Later then we went to Friendship park cause we didnt know where else to go but ended up we almost died of boredom there. Its just different when you hanged out with different groups of people but still at the same place :) Anyway after minutes of boredom and complaints we decided to crashed Belle's place since her parents were in honeymoon to Europe. And i finally get to try soju! We went to Korea Product and wuuh, should i say i just love the shop the moment i stepped into the place? Its only next to Koreana wth. Everythin inside is madly koreanish XD We grabbed two bottles of soju and paid for it, each cost 9bucks. Sunny thanked the pretty cashier lady in hangul and she even replied in hangul saying gomapseumnida. WUUH! Yeah i know im like a cavegirl but i was THIS close to a korean lady! A pretty one some more XD I wonder why she lives in Kuching when she can be famous in Korea. I wanted to keep the receipt though but Sunny destroyed it HE DIDNT WANT ME TO KEEP IT stupid boy. So, next stop. Belle's house. Muahaha. Thats when the craziness began.

I didnt expect soju to be SO strong. We played heart attack, the exact same card game we played at 175cafe before Sunny went to China, but this time whoever loses drinks one whole glass of soju. But the glass was like so small, the exact same size as the glasses the koreans use when they drink soju. First round already i lose -_- Then after a few rounds, Belle was starting to get tipsy and she kept giggling suddenly, so Sunny and Chris wanted to make her lose but i kept losing instead cause i lost concentration so can imagine how much stress i was in to make sure i dont lose cause if i do, i get blamed == So yeah ended up i drank the most but Belle got tipsy the worse. I think she got drunk? And couldnt stop laughing. When it was almost 12am they sang birthday song! Chris and Sunny forgotten it was my birthday until Belle told em -_- It was really a night for us cause many things happened. I sleptover cause its impossible for me to get in the house smelling like alcohol right?

I didnt get enough sleep since i woke up at 5sth am. Hanged out in front of her computer and talked til 9sth am and she sent me home. It was TIRING. My back was aching cause i kept falling down when i was tipsy that night. I got lectured by mum when i reached home, yeah what a nice wish to get from your mum on your birthday. I fell into bed once i got into my room. Woke up not long and ya! Finally i wore my dress that i bought online :D It was short =_= And went out with Jude, Log aka pretty eyes and Jeremy. I FEEL BAD CAUSE THEY HADDA FOLLOW ME AROUND THE WHOLE MALL JUST TO LOOK FOR ONE HAND LOTION THAT I WANTED TO GET FOR MUM AS A PRESENT. Some more Iron Man II was gonna start at 4.15pm so yeah we had plenty of time to shop for mum's present since we were there at 2sth pm. And stupid Jude kept insisting on buying me a present. SO IRRITATING YOU KNOW. Its not irritating as in hate but irritating cause i feel bad about it == But i love the present :D It was from my brother of course lah. Even mum loves it XD

Well Iron Man II was awesome :D watch it and no regrets. I didnt even get to watch the 1st one im already impressed with the second. Next stop was dinner with Stanley. We had it at Pumpkin and the butter chicken rice was.. . Fuh. Creamy! Vera didnt went! But she passed her driving test :DD And no i havent yet -.- Overall i had a great birthday. Mum love her present that i got for her. I feel bad i didnt get anything for dad though cause he's always driving me around.

OHH! Guess what. I kena form6 in BATU LINTANG.

Beautiful or not?

Beautiful lah just admit it. Great. Im sure dad's super happy about it.

And Jude made me dont wanna go StThomas anymore cause of some things he said -_-

StJoseph? Phobia of that school.

Guess im stuck in BL then?

And i wanna watch this!

Loving this song :) The theme song for the movie.

I never like Miley Cyrus =_= But i've always like her movies. Why!

Okay off to bed.

May I?

2010-05-02T01:50:00.000-07:00

ITS FINALLY MAY!!

I realized many humans were born this month. Its like May 1st already 3 humans were born on this date already so yeah

Happy Belated Birthday to Denzie Cheah and also to Rick&Ralph :)

Its Labour Day as well, aint that great? But sadly its over, off to the future.

Im tired now but i always get this feeling like i havent done something yet == I just dunno what.

Anyway thats it == yeah i know short but i cant help it im EXHAUSTED. Imagine this, not getting any sleep for two nights straight? Its like worse than StJo camp -.- but worth it.

I Remember

2010-05-01T23:38:00.000-07:00

Remember that time when you still have your big belly? XD

Well i remember.

I remember that time when i was still little and you used to stay with mama and papa and us.

I remember when i broke the water refill and mum chased after me using the belt, you would protect me from mum just with your words.

I remember when you fall asleep while watching tv, i would sit and stare at you because you just looked simply amazing even with the wrinkles on your face.

I remember every moment when you gave me money and mum would scolded both of us but still you demanded on me to keep it;

even when you were broke you still gave me money.

I remember when i walked pass your room i would peeked in and watched you snore in your sleep;

yeah i was the stalker right then :P

I remember one time when i ran into your big belly while running away from mum and i bounced backwards to mum =.=

I remember when i watched you play mahjong and you said,"Watched and learn." but i still dunno how to play that -.-

I remember when i heard you yelled for mum in the middle of the night and i found you lying on the bedroom floor then dad rushed you to the hospital.

I remember every time after you get a haircut i would just stared at your bald head :D

I remember that smile you gave to my friends when they came over to play and one of em would said,"Ee he is cute." INDEED.

I remember that smile of yours too; it was simply charming.

I remember those times when i played with your walking stick.

I remember watching along the pool game on tv with you even though Lilo & Stitch was always clashing time with it.

I remember that time when you didnt want to stay with us anymore and you moved back to your hometown and stayed at big uncle's; it made me happy yet alone at the same time.

I remember going to Serian every weekends and i went cause of you.

I remember that minute when you fell down, it hurts deeply seeing how much pain you had went through, just two walks away from your room to the toilet.

I remember. . that smile you gave even when you were sickly lying on your bed.

If i could just see your smile now i'd do anything just for that.

It'd make everyone's day worth the while to live,

even seeing your identity card photo means a thousand words,

living through this life for 87 years;

you were once a tough guy, making everyone's life nothing but better days.

You were everyone's man.

You were my man.

Departed 29th April 2010.

I still wanted to take a photo with you once i got a new phone.

I guess thats just it.

Thanks grandpa :D

Love History

2010-04-29T04:20:00.000-07:00

Ha! Finally my old babeh is back to life. I mean he wasnt so in the news and suddenly now he is. And i miss watching his drama Biscuit Teacher and Star Candy! Weird title i know =.= but i love it! It was the first time when i fell for him cause he reminded me of someone also wtf but no, this is way better.

My number two babeh in my list :D -probably he's now in bottom five cause of Hongki and GDragon shh-

Gong Yoo *applause*

This was him in the drama and that was years ago! When i was only 14.

And this is the 'now' him. I know right == Bald. HEY I JUST REALISED THAT.

And no, i dont love him still cause he's bald -.- Its cause im loyal to my old love.

See im so loyal eventhough he's not my type even. If not ive already dump him by now.

-i feel paranoid =___=-

Anyway the reason this random post comes out is cause i saw this. Yup get it now? No news after Coffee Prince then suddenly he appeared with a bike with a beauty. And the beauty acted in Smile You! Shit i havent watch the fifth episode, thanks to angmoh movies. She also acted in Boys Over Flowers! Wuuh. Lee Min Jung~ Okay stop i sound like some lesbian now.

Pretty? Pretty :D

Then check this out! WHY?!?!?!! But i dont blame her, somehow it made GD seemed like a bad guy from the start O.o

K im ready for bed already :D

Finally im feeling an aching on my back! Means im lacking of sleep ohoh.

Cream and Lingerie

2010-04-29T03:50:00.000-07:00

I've just finished watching Greta! Its another Hilary Duff movie. I never expect her to act in this kinda movies cause she's always being the princess-like sweet girl and then she acted as a rebellious emo girl wtf. But i can really say she's good in acting as one because of that face she have also and the way her hair is. But i still prefer her disney cinderella-ish character. I think Greta is like her latest movie since its a 2009 movie.

See what i mean? From a sweet face to this =_=

I think she's still pretty. And im kickin the shoes :D

And why do i think Evan Ross is hot? He's hot in the movie because of his character and his voice -im in love with his voice :D- but still. . . its like ive got something for bald guys wth. Its like same thing goes to Vin Diesel. I DONT KNOW WHY but is Vin Diesel hot? But he's got this seductive look. Okay stop =_= hair guy would be better.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyway, i realised i've already watched A Cinderella Story! Like last year. Hmm well guess i just cant remember watching it.

Went out with the guys. LOG HAS NICE EYES. *wishing noone from stjo is reading this post* Like SERIOUSLY. I never realised it during the prefects camp because he was wearing specs and then suddenly just now he was wearing lens instead, whoah. Its like a whole new Log. Coloured lens some more! I was sure it was coloured lens.. right? Anyway yeah nice weii T__T cant my eyes be like that? Im somehow stuck with this single eyelid chinese eyes. Indonesians have huge double eyelids why the heck i dont? Simply just cause im 25% of indonesian only? Jeez. My WHOLE family has double eyelids in fact. Im the only one who doesnt == Its like i was collected up from some china place when i was a baby then mum brought me for plastic surgery so that i look like her or something. Alright enough about eyes. I know i still have nice eyes. They're nice.. In a way.

Grandpa's in hospital anyway. Dad and mum went to visit him in the hospital, well at least dad said he still recognized him. Thats good enough :) And mum kept talking crap -.- Pls mum when will it be that day when you can ever talk something real? Sorry i just cant help it when she talks about nonsense that hurts herself but still she wants to say it. Its like, come on, get a grip will ya? I'll just hope for miracles. If there ever is something like that. Does that word even appears in dictionary that defines heals human beings; physically or mentally or whatever that is just heal them hmm? He's like the only sweet man out there and just no one else. My dad aint sweet. He's annoying. Though i feel like a girl full of love when he pats me on the head but still -.- gah yeah i know im full of love from parents :)

Ohh guess what? Mother's Day is just another corner. GREAT. I always have problems thinking what to get for mum. I dont even remember what i get for her every year. Chocolates, that is all i could remember. Ohh and a cake for her birthday this year, and my presence when i came back from camp :D well except that i didnt have dinner with her cause was out with the girls == mm okay. Just great. Gotta brainstorm what to get for mum. And where exactly to get money gosh.

I miss someone. I think its bad somehow == Cause its just not right. Help?

Bummer

2010-04-28T04:18:00.000-07:00

I think i destroyed my blog wall =______=

Wanted to make it white since its been black all this while and im too lazy to look for blog skin through that crap sites. OHH AND YOU KNOW WHAT! I have good news and bad news. The bad news is.. Im always complaining about how horrible i will be if im going to form6 especially in my school but this time, it seems to get worse -.- I never expect this coming. Hannah had just told me the form6 system is changing like they'll arrange those to different schools BASED on their results. So can you imagine where i'll end up already? Yeah probably in some crap far away from home. Worst part of all, there's this school near my house, and NO i dont wanna go there cause -not to say im racist or anything- but MANY MALAYS AND BUMIS STUDIES IN THAT SCHOOL, whats that school call again? Yeah pending. Hmm. My neighbours went there. They WALKED on foot there. I dont wanna walk on foot there. I'd rather open my own stall instead than studying there.

Oh why WHY WHY does the system has just got to start this year?! Sometimes i just feel like the world is fooling me like, Ooh look Bel is going to form6 lets start a new system!. Oh yeah i heard she wants to transfer to StThomas HAHAHA lets make it tough for her. Her dad says he's gonna get her a new cell if she gets in form6. OH COME ON CANNOT JUST LET ME GO ON THROUGH FORM6 AND GET MY W705?! actually i thought of w595 or w901i or even better, lollipop XD SO YEAH SLAPS.

And so i dont really mind already if i really did end up in bl cause its better you rot in your old school than other schools right? Especially schools like that. Ugh. Sorry about that. And yeah StThomas? Hmm whats the chances of me getting in there, i dunno i seriously dunno. But StJo, NO THANKS. Im frightened of that school already since i stayed there for 3days 2nights and stories i've heard about it, no its just way too creepy for me to handle. I'll cry studying there. Well its not like they're gonna accept me right? =_=

Well the good news is.. Erm its more to part bad and good. I took days to study the law book since last week cause i thought i'd be taking the test last saturday. But noooooooooo a camp came up -God shouldnt have went cause i kinda made someone into trouble but ohh well- and mum postponed it to monday. But since i came home on sunday and i slept through the day so mum postponed it to wednesday which was yeah, fyi its today but nnnnoooooooooo, dad called the person and the person says next week :D I took days to studied it and especially this two days monday and tuesday not onlining and fooling around but just woke up straight from bed and studied all the way from day til night and what did i get? NEXT WEEK TEST. BAH. So much for being hardworking sometimes. See, there're reasons why i just study last minute. Well why cant SPM postponed to another day that time -.- But good thing about that is, i can study more and no worries about failing it :D

Good news is, the ladehs~~ are back from camp! Mich, MJ and Vic that is. I still dunno why they have holiday, its unfair for the first batches cause we dont have random holidays like they do. Before they going back to camp, really need to get them out cause im tired of home, and i realised and i haven meet any of em since like. . i duno, forever? Gosh.

Ohh! I know im always outdated jeez but ive just watched She's The Man! :DD Thumbs up babeh. And am currently watching A Cinderella Story :D New movie? Dear John that is. Cant wait for it to be in cinemas!

Ps : Im still lazy to blog bout the camp ohoho :D

Jesseh~

2010-04-27T02:20:00.000-07:00

Look look! I think its Jesse Mccartney's new song from his latest album. I think this was the song Log was playing on his phone whole time O.o

More to come about the camp i went. Need to sleep early now as im having my law test on wednesday and i still have more left to study! Yeah it was supposed to be on a saturday but something came up so yeah postponed to tomorrow.

Gonna post about camp soon. S L E E P.

Baby Geeeeee

2010-04-23T22:41:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAH! This made my day. Actually i was going through hell lot of trouble. I lied! WTF. I know, no big deal to some people but its big to me since i dont lie much to parents about anything. Then this time, i kinda say something thats not really true cause i wanna stay away from home for 3days 2nights at camp. No not national service but some prefects camp at stjo and im going there to busybody around. Ohoho. The thing i lied about was telling my parents that my ns gang are going to WHICH is not so true; well part true lah cause ONE of my ns gang is going what. Jude, me big bro. So i feel really super effing guilty now. Sigh.

Anyway GD's got a show! I dunno how long is it cause i only found the first and second part of it. Yeah this was what made me feeling BIIIIIIIIIIIIT better.

Part I

Part II

AHHAHAHA I LOVE GAHO!

And look! New pics XDXD

Okay i still have that scared feeling. :( Probably only music can help.